Psychward

Since being diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2006, I’ve spent my share of time in mental wards, with six total stays spanning six years.  These visits have opened my eyes to the humanity of today’s mental health treatment methods, as compared to the stereotypes perpetrated in the popular media.  Yes, you lose your freedom for a period of time.  Yes, you miss your family and the comforts of home.  Yes, you are deprived of many of your personal coping mechanisms.  But it’s not as scary a process as it could be, thanks to modern pharmacological treatment methods designed to take you down from your psychosis and give you clarity of mind, enough that you can often avoid some of the pitfalls of being in a treatment facility.

A few caveats.  I have never been in facilities that housed violent individuals.  I have never undergone shock treatment.  I have never been through drug and alcohol rehab, that not being among my problems. I have never actually attempted suicide.  And I have been committed against my will only once.  So I can’t speak to some things that others may have experienced in those situations.  But I do know my own experience, including the learning I did that has enabled me to now stay out of the hospital for over three years.

The first time I went to the ward was very upsetting for me. By March 2006, I had been going through a depressive episode and had almost run away from home on a Thursday night.  I instead came back home, gave Bob the pistol I had carried out of the house with me, and told him I was at the end of my rope.  The next day we called my counselor, Amy, and Bob told her what had happened. She said, “We’ve got to make sure you’re safe this weekend and have you evaluated by a doctor.”

She told us she would start working on getting the evaluation set up but that it would likely be Monday before I saw a doctor.  She had me give her a verbal agreement that I would not hurt myself over the weekend and gave my husband her cell number to call if there was any trouble before Monday.  I behaved myself and by that afternoon, she had me a Monday appointment at St. Dominic’s Hospital in Jackson.

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  1. I’ve never had a counselor or a psychiatrist, outside of the one who diagnosed me. He retired soon after, which was about 20 some years ago. I have asked for one often in the past 10 years, especially since I’ve been dealing with menopause. But in this area they are not taking new patients unless you are on Medicaid. So I’ve been left to deal with it on my own. I’m sure there were a couple of times when I should have been hospitalized. But I made it with a few adjustments by my family physician from time to time.

    So your experiences are fascinating because I’ve never been in a hospital for mental illness at all. I have been in the hospital several times in the past 12 years for extremely high blood pressure. No one has figured out why. I think it’s linked in part to the bipolar.

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