Folks, I’m in need of some encouragement. I’m feeling like I’m slipping into a depression, and I’m having major problems with obsessive thinking. I keep thinking that Bob’s going to die in a car accident going to and from work. I can’t get the thoughts out of my head, even though I know it’s simply bipolar disorder barking up a tree again. I’ve let him know and he’s promised to be extra careful (they are doing major construction on the road where he works, which is where I think some of this is coming from). But it’s torturing me all the same.
Obsessions are hard to describe. It’s like your mind gets into a groove like a broken record player and keeps playing the same song over and over and over inside your head. It’s like an earworm where you get a song stuck in your head and can’t get it out. But instead of a song it’s a disturbing thought or worry of some kind that just will not go away. I try and stay busy so they don’t have time to set up housekeeping in my mind, but it doesn’t always work. Just think about me and pray for me through these next few months that this is not the onset of something even more interesting later on. Thanks for any prayers you can send my way.