Folks, I’m in need of some encouragement.  I’m feeling like I’m slipping into  a depression, and I’m having major problems with obsessive thinking.  I keep thinking that Bob’s going to die in a car accident going to and from work.  I can’t get the thoughts out of my head, even though I know it’s simply bipolar disorder barking up a tree again.  I’ve let him know and he’s promised to be extra careful (they are doing major construction on the road where he works, which is where I think some of this is coming  from).  But it’s torturing me all the same.

Obsessions are hard to describe.  It’s like your mind gets into a groove like a broken record player and keeps playing the same song over and over and over inside your head.  It’s like an earworm where you get a song stuck in your head and can’t get it out.  But instead of a song it’s a disturbing thought or worry of some kind that just will not go away.  I try and stay busy so they don’t have time to set up housekeeping in my mind, but it doesn’t always work.  Just think about me and pray for me through these next few months that this is not the onset of something even more interesting later on.  Thanks for any prayers you can send my way.

7 thoughts on “Encouragement

  1. Just wondering, I am not familiar with bipolar but what do you think would happen if instead of obsessing on something that may not happen, you began ‘obsessing’ on the word of God and begin to declare that your husband is blessed in his coming and his going and thanking God for protecting him? Just a thought. Replace the negative with the word of God which will help to renew your mind. Romans 12:1-2

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  2. Yeah… I thought that very thing that Jeannie said. Perhaps you can find a few verses to memorize during these obsessive downfalls… and another thing that may help is reading a good book- that will bring your mind into a new entire world of thought?

    This may sound weird, but exercise. The distraction and the endorphins= win/win!!


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  3. I know exactly what you are going through!! All the above suggestions are great, but this part of bipolar is so difficult to manage. The tapes in the head play over and over, and are so difficult to squelch. I’ve known about my bipolar for 20 years, and this is one of the areas that’s most difficult to overcome. 20 years and I’m still fighting this battle. It’s literally exhausting. So I’m praying that you’ll find the strength to fight this off. And include all the above suggestions too. Hang tight, sister in Christ.


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