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I am so zonked out today.  I refilled my Pristiq and hope that will make it better.  It’s all I can do to keep my eyes open this morning. I went grocery shopping and scared myself driving.  And actually sleeping doesn’t make it better. I wake up just as tired as I was before.  I’m going to investigate and see if I can’t buy a prescription drug plan that will cover my Ability.  I don’t’ know how much longer I can go like this.

Did find out I made an A in my October class I went to at the W.  Got all the components graded and wound up with an A in each.  SO I’m pretty proud of that. Still have an A so far in my semester long class and hope that will hold up through the last three grades I have coming through there.



Almost Gone

Just about packed up and ready to go out of town. Made a run to the drug store to make sure I had enough of all my meds.    Don’t want to lose it over the weekend at any point.  So here’s hoping for a nice relaxing weekend.  Won’t be posting while I’m gone because I”ll be away from internet.  But I’ll be back on track Monday.

Hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving!



Sneaking Around

We’re playing the first of Christmas music in the house because we are baking the first cookies of the holiday season and that just calls for carols.  Listening to Straight No Chaser singing “Christmas Cheer”.  I love this album.  And it was the first one I found when I started looking. So there. But I’ll need to finish it before Bob comes home because he doesn’t like Christmas music too early.  So.

My conference went well yesterday–now we’re working on little ticky things about the projects.  I need to rotate a photo on a video and he wanted more links in my hypertext story.  So that will be fun to do.  I’ve already done most of what I’m going to do on the hypertext story–I’ve gotten ti up to 48 pages and think that’s almost too long. I have to recut the whole video to rotate a photo so I’m not really happy about that. But I’ll get it worked out.

I’ll be packing this afternoon for our trip out of town for Thanksgiving. I’ve almost got everyone’s laundry done.  I just hope everything goes well this year.  Everyone including me gets so touchy this time of year.  I will have to be careful and bite my tongue a lot.  But we’ll see how everyone behaves.

Hope everyone has a good rest of the week and a Happy Thanksgiving!


Still in School

So I have a teleconference today with my professor, but my kids are out for the week.  We will see how this works.  I don’t have anything due this week thankfully.  ALl I have to still turn in is my final portfolio and my artist’s statement.  So I feel like I’m in a pretty good place so far for the semester.

Trying to get laundry done before we go out of town later this week.  Fun fun.  My middle one is doing church work this week so she will be busy.  The young one is going off with a friend today and should have fun. I’ll have the house to myself for a lot of the day, which will be nice to get things done.

I really screwed up yesterday.  I took my night meds in the morning.  And then had to take my morning meds on top of them. Luckily I managed okay.  I’ve caught myself almost doing it before, but this time I just swallowed the whole set before I realized that it was the wrong set.  A little scary to realize what I had done but like I said, I managed okay



A Visit

My oldest is coming come for the weekend–she heard we were going to see “The Peanuts Movie” and wanted to come too.  So she is  on her way and will be here in about an hour.  We’re also going to take Christmas pictures Saturday since she will be home and give those away for Christmas presents as usual.  So we have a busy weekend planned.

Thanksgiving should go off like normal this year–we’ll be at deer camp Thursday morning and lunchtime then go see my parents Thanksgiving night.  That is the plan so far.

I am so sleepy. I slept in until 9:30 but still feel whipped. I’ve had two Dr. Peppers so hopefully the last one will perk me up some.  I’ve gotten to the point that I sleep so hard the alarm clock doesn’t wake me up anymore.  My youngest usually comes in and wakes me up with something she needs.  So that is the way that is going. So sleepy.

Hope everyone has a good weekend!



That’s what I feel like this morning.  I woke up around 3 a.m. and never went back to sleep. I got up and sat up for a little while until my husband woke up and realized I wasn’t in the bed with him. That was about 5:15 a.m.  So I got back in bed at his request and was just about asleep again when the alarm went off.  SO I am  sleepy today and not sure what all I’m going to accomplish.

I did do some hard thinking last night. I came up with an idea for getting a project of mine published and came up with a way to address something in my recovery in my memoir with sensitivity to all involved. I’ll need to write that up soon so I won’t lose track of how I want to express it.  But I still have to think on it some more.

I am excited about taking a nonfiction workshop next semester and improving my story about my recovery. I dont’ know what all will be covered in it, but this project is one I plan to work on during it.  Get me a head start on my thesis as well since I want to base it on the story I already have written down.  SO it’s just good news all around!

Hope everyone has a good rest of the week!





God’s put patience on my mind a lot lately.  I’ve sat behind a lot of red lights today, I’ve dealt with more obstacles, and I’ve waited on more people this week than I have in a long time.  ANd I keep feeling the inner prodding to be less pushy, less jumpy, and less agitated than all those things usually make me.  Makes me wonder what He’s preparing me for next.

I really put myself out there this week on my project I sent in for workshop this week.  I talked about my salvation experience in terms of helping me cope with my mental illness.  The university I’m attending online is very liberal, and my daughter says she has trouble with people as she’s an open Christian there.  Some of it is the type of students she is around–most think of themselves as highly intellectual.

So I was expecting a little pushback from people about being so explicitly Christian, but everyone was supportive of my project, telling me that it was really good and told my story effectively.  I’m not quite sure how to take it–but if it gets the word out about Jesus, then I’m all for their support.


Missed a Day

We were without internet all day yesterday.  SO very frustrating.  But it was up and working the morning so I’ve gotten more done than I did yesterday.  So that is nice.

Everyone is spending some time being sick.  Bob and my little one had a tummy bug yesterday and the middle one has sinuses.  SO I am getting ready to take the middle one to the doctor and see if we can’t treat it early.  I hope so,.  And I need to get my shot with I will try to do tomorrow.  We will see if the schedule works out for it.

SO I need to get her to her appointment.  HOpe everyone has a good start to their week!



SO Bob shipped out this morning on his way to Nashville.  He’s already called me three times and hasn’t even gotten there yet :).  I think he’s going to miss us all.

I’m going to visit my parents tomorrow with the girls and see how they are doing.  I’ t’s been a while since we’ve visited them. So it’s a great opportunity to run up there for the day.  ANd I’ll take pictures for my final project for New Media while we’re there.

FInshed my video project finally.  I just didn’t feel good about it being so short and not very well developed, so I redid it and expanded it quite a bit.  I recorded narration and had a lot of problems with that until I finally got it right.  So that’s another redone project off my list.

My oldest just called–she had a scholarship dinner today and met the owner of a collection of restaurants in town at her table, and after talking to her for a while he offered her his business card and told her to call him if she ever needed a job or an internship.  SO she was very excited.  I hope her original plan for an internship works out, but if not, this would be a great fallback position and a good opportunity with him for her.  So that’s exciting news.

Hope everyone has a good weekend!


Now I’m really out of stories, etc. to send to publications.  I sent one to my professor this morning about my runaway experience for a nonfiction contest.  He asked all of us MFA students to send in our best work and he would choose one nonfiction, one fiction, and three poems to send into the contest.  SO I won’t know anything about whether I’m even in that group until after December 1.

I did have a great idea last night–I tried to write a novel years before I started freelance writing.  I started on it after the Lewinsky scandal.  It was a political novel about a newspaper reporter covering politics for a major metropolitan newspaper and the presidential campaign he covered.

Well, I got 150 pages into it and gave up.  But I laid in bed last night and thought, why don’t I take the story of the campaign and write it as fiction short story AS IF IT ACTUALLY HAPPENED.  Set the election in 2024  and have the story itself told from the point of view of the reporter looking back on his life and talking about this incredible political campaign.  Write a fiction story as if it were a nonfiction memoir.  I think ti would likely be novella length but oh so good.

A lot that I had happen in the story has happened in the intervening years–elements of the  Bush Vs. Gore court case in the 2000 election , the events of 9/11, election of the first black president, etc.  SO I will have to update and explain the story a little bit.  But I found my original notes for the novel, a synopsis I had written, and the first 150 pages this morning after searching my desk.  SO I’m  excited about the possibilities.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!  Bob is going off on his trip Friday; please pray that it will go well for him and that me and the girls can make it fine on our end.