Today yoga was impossible. Several exercises I just sat out, others I hurt so much I could not continue with them. I feel so frustrated with myself for being so out of shape and fat. But I’m going to keep going so I can learn them and do them correctly. I need to stick with some kind of exercise if I’m going to get anywhere in lessening my anxiety or getting healthy. Please pray against discouragement for me in this exercise.
I slept in this morning but I still want to get back into the bed right now. My doctor discontinued one of the new medications we had tried so I don’t know if that has made a difference or not. And I’m on my third Dr. Pepper of the day. I told my therapist that I’m coming around to the idea that maybe I just need more sleep than I used to and more than other people do and I’m not hating myself quite as much for it. She said that sounded like improvement in my mental state. So I am trying to let go of high expectations and just do what I can do.\
Anyway. I feel better now that I’ve written all this down. I’m still sleepy but Bob will be coming in soon so I need to be awake for that. My daughter’s sleepover is this weekend so I am preparing for that. I hope she has a good little group of girls come over. WE will see how that goes.