I dropped off my youngest at school, came home, went to bed at 7:50, and just now got back up. So I have nothing to write about, nothing to say today, nothing at all. I wonder how I got this way. I can’t even figure out what to fix for dinner tonight. I can’t think of anything. My mind is a blank. I need to get in gear and take care of myself and my family. But something is keeping me from that. And I don’t know what I can do about it.
I don’t remember that last time I felt this close to actual despair. I’m not suicidal, but I’m just so totally down. I feel incapable today. I’ve already done the biggest part of my assignment for class, but I still have to comment on other people’s contributions and I can’t think of anything to say. At all. I feel mute.