I am much calmer today. I talked to my counselor yesterday and we spent a lot of time trying to figure out why I do this to myself. WE didn’t really come up with an answer, but we have some more appointments scheduled to work on it. Then I went to church and . heard a sermon on prayer that really calmed down my spirit. I went and told the pastor that, and he said the nicest thing to me. He said he knew my struggles (we had been in counseling with him once) and I was an inspiration to him in how I fought bipolar disorder, the fact that I didn’t give up. THat made me feel good inside.That’s all I want is to inspire somebody if I:m going to have this problem , for it to be used for good.