Back to high energy, which started last night. TOok me forever to fall asleep last night, and I am awake this morning. I’ve finished decorating for the Christmas Party and have started on my Christmas cards–I did all of Bob’s work cards and am about to start on my Sunday School class cards. WE’re going to need new cards–these I bought on sale last year at the Hallmark Store and I’m almost out already. They’re Snoopy cards! 🙂 Hopefully I can find some more like them for my family.
Last night’s sermon was so applicable to what I’ve been going through. I went and accused the pastor of reading my blog :). He talked about how Rachel and Leah, Jacob’s wives, competed for him and his love by having children and how their identity got bound up in that, which was the only status symbols available to them in that time. Leah wanted Jacob’s love but didn’t get it no matter how many children she had, so God brought her to where she finally realized God was what she needed. Rachel had Jacob’s love but it wasn’t enough–she wanted children like Leah had. And God had to bring her to a place of brokenness to where she realized all she had was GOd–and he was what she needed.
What this tells me is that I’m not going to find my identity anywhere but in Jesus and be satisfied. Not in publishing or in motherhood competition or anywhere else. I need to keep reminding myself of that and doing what I can operating out of that truth. So. We will see what GOd does with this truth in my life.