So Tired Today

So my youngest came in yesterday from school feeling bad, not wanting to go to dance.  SO I took her to the doctor today and she had a sinus infection. So we are getting her some medicine and what not to try to feel better this week.  No strep, so that was nice. I still feel yucky but will hold out until my appointment tomorrow. Hopefully that will go well.

But I sure do feel atrocious in the meantime.   I started coughing last night and couldn’t not get a handle on it, even with prescription cough meds.  I was up every four hours taking more of it untii I finally quit coughing.

I guess I’ll go eat lunch now.  Hope everyone else is feeling good today!



Now I’m Sick…

We got my middle child well only for me to start getting sick on Saturday.  Sore throat and ears to start with, then Sunday the stuffy nose and sinus headache started to hit.  So I’m not feeling just wonderful, but I’m not nearly as sick as my middle child was so I think I don’t have what she did.   It’s a rainy day and I’m not sure I want to get out in it in the state that I am, so I think I will just stay home as much as possible.

The youngest one went on to her dance competition and her troupe garnered some big awards and two invitations to go to New York and dance.  They probably won’t do that since they’re so young.  But it was a big honor to be invited.

I get workshopped this week in my class again.  This time I get feedback not only online but in a conference later this week as well. So that will be interesting experience. I hope to rewrite this piece and send it to Creative Nonfiction for publication and maybe since it will have been worked over so hard it will get selected this time.  It’s not due until June, so I have a long time still to work on it.

I went shopping this weekend and bought lots of blue for my trip to Atlanta and for the residency this summer.  Only three outfits for me and one dress for my daughter, but we got discounts so made out pretty well.  I tried on some Kasper suits but the largest size didn’t fit and they didn’t have the same ones on the plus size side.

Well, I hope everyone ahs a good beginning of the week.  We will all try to get well on this end.  Happy  Monday!



I’m doing so well that my psychiatrist said , “You’re cured!”  But I know better.  I’ve been here before and been knocked back down to the depths. But it certainly has been a nice feeling and I plan to do everything in my power to keep things going well.

WE set up a meeting where we can talk for a while about my case and I can answer some medical questions as well as a few things that kind of nag at me about my  course of treatment–what actually went down when the police called my psychiatrist, why I have a diagnosis of Histrionic Personality Disorder, that sort of thing.

My middle one is still ill.  We’re about at our wit’s end on  how to help her.  She says she is getting better slowly.  But I think I”m still going to stay home this weekend instead of going to the dance competition.  WE will see how that plays out.

I need to go to the grocery store and I need to do Bob’s laundry. Usually I can only accomplish one of those in a day–but I need to do better today.




Don’t Know What’s Wrong. . .

My middle one is still down with whatever it is she has.  I called the doctor back and he called in a ten-day antibiotics prescription so we will see if she improves with that.  It doesn’t look like I will go to the dance competition after all.  I will be home with her. I hope we can get everything packed.

I took the youngest  for a check up today and she is fine. She is right at five feet tall and 98 pounds.  She got a booster shot  and I took her back to school so she won’t be home with whatever it is her sister has.

I have my psychiatrist’s appointment tomorrow so I will leave my middle one at home while I go to  that.  Hopefully she won’t be as sick as she is today.  She’s just slept all day.  As for me, I think I will have a good report from them–I’m handling everything pretty well and keeping up with obligations.  We will see what he says.



Still Sick

My middle one is perking up somewhat.  If she keeps getting better, she should go back to school tomorrow.  I hope she can.  She doesn’t need to miss any more school.  She’s on track to graduate with honors and I don’t want that to  be messed up for her.

Otherwise things are rocking along pretty good.  I need more words for my essay I hope to turn in later on in class.  I will keep trying to remember what happened and work on it.  It was SO long ago that I suppose I’m lucky I remember anything about it.

My oldest is going to come home tomorrow and get things for her Spring Break trip to the Grand Canyon.  She needs stuff to pack for out there and her medicine and other items.  She just won’t be able to stay long.    Hopefully she won’t catch what her sister had whlie she’s here.

I’m feeling pretty good–slept in some this morning but that is all that I have noticed about my symptoms.  I’m trying to stay busy and do what all I need to do for the house and everything.


A Little Sad

Talked to my friend today who is my best friend from church and found out that she and her family are going to start going to a different church to try to meet the needs of their youngest son.  He is not fitting in with the other kids in the high school ministry and they are starting the search for a new church.  I am sad in that I will miss seeing her on Sundays and Wednesdays.  WE do plan to stay friends and  can hopefully go out to eat and such together like the rest of me and my friends do. We will see.

My middle one is sick today.  She called from  school and I went to check on her and convinced her to go ahead and come home instead of waiting until classes were over. SO we have an appointment this afternoon for the doctor.  I hope it’s nothing serious because she has an eye appointment tomorrow that has been rescheduled and rescheduled over and over.

Turned in my workshop piece for next week and we will see how that goes.  I can’t believe how quickly this month is flying by. I know February is a short month, but for me it usually drags a great deal–it seems to have always done so in the past. But I’ve been out of the hospital now longer than a year and am looking forward to spring and what is coming up for me.  We will see how it all goes.



Well, I had a sobering experience last night at church.  I realized that the further I get into remission, the less I tend to rely on God and try to live in my own power.  That’s a notion I need to give up forever.  I KNOW I can’t trust myself, especially since I have bipolar disorder.   My animal mind is diseased by bipolar and unreliable.  I MUST remember to rely on God and his word and direction.  Or I will wind up back in the hospital again.  Or worse, back in sin and pain all over again.

I turned in my workshop piece for next week.  It’s what I hope to send to Creative Nonfiction for their call for submissions about starting over.  SO I’ll get it workshopped, rewrite it for my final paper, and get more feedback from my professor before I send it in.  Hopefully it will all work well together and I will get into the journal finally.

We’re supposed to be getting a new air conditioner installed today–just waiting on the guys to show up for it.  I was hoping they’d be here by now because we hoped to go out to lunch with Bob today since the kids are off.  But we will see what happens.

Hope everyone has a good Monday and a good rest of the week.


Back to Work

Bob finally got to go back to work today–he is still on a soft diet but he felt strong enough to go to the office, so I didn’t stop him.  I’ve been puttering around the house and all–I’ll soon go to the grocery store and see what I can figure out for dinner tonight for him that won’t hurt him.

Had a conference last night and it went well. I was cut off right at the end–the wifi just cut out.  But they said I didn’t miss anything so that is good.  WE talked for about an hour plus 15 minutes so it didn’t take up a lot of time.   It was nice to finally be able to put a voice to the words I’ve been reading from the new people.

I slept in this morning–not sure why. I had some intense dreams last night, but they didn’t wake me up that I know of so I don’t know why I couldn’t get moving this morning.  My mom was screaming at me about cleaning in my dreams, and I was screaming back that she couldn’t make me do anything.  I have a lot of those kinds of dreams.  I don’t know what they mean.    But I feel pretty good otherwise today so that is a blessing.


On The Mend

Bob is feeling better.  He’s been able to drink without feeling nauseated today.  He still wants real food but tomorrow he’ll stil be on a soft diet.  We will see how it goes.

I’m still holding up really well.  I know this bodes well for the future.  Next week is going to be hectic with doctor appointments for the kids, but I’m confident that I’ll manage it. Then we have a dance competition so we will see how that goes with me feeling so much better than usual.

I can’t think of much else to write.  I still need to finish up my assignments for class and have a conference for it tonight.  I have the last assignment partially written but it needs about three hundred more words and I am just tapped out.  I’ll go back and look at it this morning and try to finish it.

This “living” thing just keeps getting better and better.  I love it!


Sick Day Three

Bob went to the doctor this morning and found out he has a severe stomach flu.  The doctor said he had seen a good bit of it the past few days and gave him a restricted diet to follow the next three days.  So I will be going to the grocery store and getting a few things for him off the list and see if he can hold them in his system.

I’m slowly working my way through my schoolwork. For some reason it’s hard this week. We have a video conference tomorrow night and will see how that goes. I need to get everything in before that so I will work some more this afternoon.

I’m holding up pretty well.  Used to I got really panicked when Bob got sick because there was so much to do.  But now things are easier and I’m not so paranoid about it.  That is actually a good feeling for me–I think it means I am still getting better every day.

I haven’t heard anything about my op-ed I wrote for the local paper.  THis issue I wrote about is still an issue, so I hope they take me up on the column. I will just have to be patient.  I’ve sent out a lot more stuff this week and so hopefully can get more published this year than last.

HOpe everyone had a happy Valentines Day yesterday and has a good rest of the week.