Archive | April 2017


I’m back to feeling sleepy all the time.  I almost certainly don’t want to do schoolwork or housework today.  I just want to rest, stay in my housecoat all day and sleep.  I need something to key up my emotional energy, Maybe I just need to ride for a while.  I will have to think about that.  I have been riding in the late afternoon, just before everyone gets off work.  Maybe I can ride twice in a day.  We will see what I end up doing.

I wonder if there’s something in particular knocking me down lately.  I can’t identify anything changing except my middle one having that wreck last week and my whole life kind of getting cancelled because of it.  But that’s just part of the job, I think.  I should be used to it by now.  And I should be glad I have the opportunity to help now because soon she won’t need me around–and that time is coming around pretty quickly,  She leaves July 2 for Mississippi State University.  That’s not  a lot of time to organize things around here like moving her room downstairs and moving my youngest upstairs.  They’ll probably actually start that project around the end of April once the middle one gets out of school.

Here’s to me staying awake the rest of the day.  Hope everyone has a good rest of the week,





We’re having our Easter weather a couple of days late.  Thunderstorms yesterday and this morning,  I haven’t been caught out in it so I’ve been all right.  I am so tired today.  Bob had another bad night with his cough; neither one of us got any sleep.  I’m starting to despair him ever getting better without going to the doctor and doing some kind of serious intervention.  I don’t know what else they can do with allergies but something has to give around here.

I seriously don’t feel like doing anything at all but sleeping. I still have two workshopping essays  to do this week so I haven’t finished my class stuff yet.  My brain is just foggy,  I’m going to get another coke and drink it and see if it helps my concentration any.  I;m hoping I’m not slipping backwards.  I think this is just going to be an off day and if I get a good night’s sleep tonight that I can make it better tomorrow.’

I have the meeting with NAMI this week on Friday.  Hopefully that will go well.   I am looking forward to it.  I just hope it doesn’t become some kind of skirmish between God people and others.  I don’t know how it would get that way, but I can easily see it doing so.  I am just going to have to say “In my experience” a lot.

Been getting rejected lately.  Two pieces on bipolar that I had a lot of hope for were rejected.  They didn’t “fit” what the editors were trying to do.  I wonder what that means, because they were special issues: one about invisible illness and another about people on the “margins”.  So we will see if anyone else is interested.

I suppose I will just keep pressing on.  Hopefully I will wake up and not be so drowsy the rest of the day.



Monday Morning

Oh, I feel cruddy.  I’ve developed a little cough and rather than take Nyquil I took a prescription cough syrup last night and now I have a headache and am a little loopy feeling.   I hope it goes away soon; I’ve got too much to do this week.

So I bought the recumbent bike and have ridden it every evening since I did.  I get a pretty good workout in my legs riding it for about 15 minutes per day.  It’s not hard on my knees or my feet so I  call that good for me and my various ailments,  It’s just a nice easy ride here in the neighborhood.   I’m so glad I did this for myself.

Easter Sunday was a lovely day here–nice and warm and not rainy.  We went to early church and then went to lunch with Bob’s parents. So that was a nice time as well.  We spent Saturday day with my parents and enjoyed that.

My middle one get herself a new car–the insurance said the other one was a total loss.  So they got that taken care of and we pick it up today.  I don’t really feel good about doing that–I wish there had been more discussion about being careful on the road.  But maybe she’s at least learned her lesson about going too fast.

I have my seminar this week on Friday–I got get my hair touched up for it Tuesday.  I’m trying to decide if I want to wear an old dress that still fits or go buy a new one for the occasion. I think I will wear the old one–I feel good in it and confident in myself whenever I wear it.

Here’s hoping the headache goes  away.  Hope everyone has a happy spring!


Good Friday

Miracles abound–my three children are sitting down and playing a board game together without arguing.  So glad for small miracles.

Taking the middle one to the doctor to get her ear checked out.  It’s been ringing and echoing ever since the accident.  SO that was Monday so I think we need to check this out.  Pray that there is no permanent damage and that it resolves as soon as possible.

I’m trying to catch a cold.  I’ve been coughing all week and my throat is sore.  I hope it goes away soon.  We’re just hanging around the house today except for the appointment and my going to check out the bike again.  THe kids are supposed to be hanging out at the house at least.  I really do hope this bike works out.  I need to lose so much weight.

I got a list of possible topics for discussion at the seminaru–it was really intriguing.  I look forward to the discussion and the entire event.   I hope I have something to contribute to it.  I don’t want to just sit there and not discuss.

I am still feeling well even with all the stress of the past week.  I hope the car is repairable and that it can be fixed relatively quickly because it’s kind of hard for  us to operate without the oldest in the house not having a car.

Pray that you all have a blessed Easter weekend and can meditate on the true meaning of it amidst the rush of the holiday.


Wild Day

So I finally got my middle one to the eye doctor after having to cancel multiple appointment for various reasons.  Her eyes have not changed so we went and got her contacts and a new pair of glasses for her to take to college.   We haven’t gotten a decision on whether her car is fixable or not from the insurance company so we don’t know anything there.  But I do need to pick her up early from school and take her to get her allergy shots that she didn’t get yesterday.  Then I have to go to the grocery store and get a few items to get us through the week and weekend.

My oldest is home for the weekend and that is ninice,.  She hasn’t been home for any length of time since Christmas, so that has been kind of hard on her.  But she should stay through SUnday and maybe Monday as well.  We will see how it goes.  She said it depends on how much work she gets done at home over the weekend.

I’m still holding together pretty well and am starting to look forward to my trip for my school soon.  I need to finish my final project soon and have about a thousand words of room left on it.  So we will see what happens with it.

I wish I could sit still for a while and type more but it’s almost time to go pick up the middle one again from school.  She is still sore from the wreck and one of her ears is ringing so she is not completely recovered yet.  Hopefully she will start feeling better soon.




I got news yesterday that a short story I wrote, Bass-Ackwards, has been published at  Tiny, tiny little publication but a publication nonetheless.

My middle child is still hurting from her accident; she didn’t feel well at all going to school today, and I have a call in to a doctor about how her ear is still ringing.  But she has to keep going to school for another month to graduate so she can’t miss much more of her work.  But it will all be worth it once she finishes and then goes on to college this summer.  She is so looking forward to this time in her life.

It will be very strange having only one child at home next school year.  Especially as old as Rachel will be.  The last time we  had only one child at home the oldest was three.  So it will be a bit of a different world.

I have an appointment to meet up with a guy looking to sell his recumbent bike. He wants a lot for it, but it’s only half of what he paid for it and he says it’s hardly been ridden because his granddaughter was too small for it when he bought it,  So I see him Friday to see if I can ride it once he’s adjusted it.  So hopefully I can start exercising and lose some of this weight without tripping over into mania.



My middle one had a car accident yesterday.  She was speeding trying to get home from MSU orientation, and a car pulled out in front of her on Highway 25.  SHe hit her brakes and swerved but hit him anyway and spun out.  She has a lot of bumps and bruises but no concussion and no broken bones.  So we are thankful for that.  She went to the hospital and got checked over is how we know that.  Her daddy went in and stayed with her and they got home and settled in at about 11 p.m.  So none of us have exactly slept well except maybe her with the pain killers they put into her.

I hope she doesn’t take after me in this department.  She has always been very careful up to this point and I hope she takes the lesson not to speed quite so much.  I used my time wisely and typed up all my schoolwork waiting for them to come in.  SO I didn’t just sit here and worry myself.  I am proud of doing that when it would have been easy to break down and get obsessive and hysterical.   So that is a plus.

So we will see what today brings.  Hopefully calmer than  yesterday.  She is staying home from school today and should go back tomorrow unless some kind of complication comes up.

Hope everyone has a good rest of the week.  Pray that she will recover quickly.