I had a conversation with one of the girls in the program yesterday afternoon. We were talking about a news event and I said that a story I had read for workshop that morning was on the very same kind of event and that was spooky, Instead of really continuing that conversation, she turned it to my reading the other night. She told me gently but firmly that she did not appreciate my reading the other night, she thought it was egregiously violent and did not like it at all that I had put it out there because, she said, that kind of thing stuck with her and she didn’t like opening her mind to it. I said well, you wouldn’t like any of what we read this morning in workshop either.
So she asked why I liked to write about that kind of thing. I said I didn’t like it and wished I could write about other things. She asked why I couldn’t. ANd we went around and around the topic never agreeing but never agreeing to disagree either. Now I think she thinks badly of me for my writing such things. 😦
So I’m really going to get into conversations with my mentors about this topic and see if they can suggest ways I can change what I write or if I really need to, if there’s a market for what I do at all. I wonder if we would even be having this conversation if I were a man.