SO we are in day 2 of packing and the middle one is still managing very capably. She is working out what clothes to pack so that is going to be interesting. She has everything in her closet organized to within an inch of its life, so it won’t be hard to work out.
We’ve started the youngest one on a new book series called Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy–classic scifi. She’s got it because she was complaining she needed a new music player and I told her she could earn one by reading more books. She likes Doctor Who, so I thought she would enjoy the comedy of Hitchhiker’s Guide. SO far she has not fussed about not liking it, so I hope she is finding it interesting.
I’m still holding up well so I am glad of that. It helps that we’ve done this before and that she is taking most of the responsibility of doing this. Keeps me out of it and where I can concentrate on doing what can I do.
Time to go over to the other blog and post there. Hope everyone has a great Fourth of July weekend!
My middle one is packing to go. She says she doesn’t want help, so I am staying out of her way until asked. I am very lethargic today and not sure why. I stayed in the bed until late and am now having a slow start to doing anything useful.
I hope I am not all of a sudden getting depressed about her leaving. That would be bad. But it’s entirely possible.
We go out to lunch today with my friend Mary Jane and I should be looking forward to that, but I’m just kind of bleh. Maybe it’s just that I haven’t had caffeine yet. I may go for a walk to the corner store and get a coke.
Tomorrow I get to clean up some of the left overs from them rearranging their rooms–I’ve got Candy and Christy coming to help me haul boxes around. And we may go to lunch too. So we will see.
I need to determine that this is going to be a good day no matter what I feel inside. I owe that to them today.
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TOday is laundry day so that will be fun. And my middle one starts packing for college supposedly today. I feel pretty good about that so far. I hope I can hold it together for her. But she’s ready–been ready for a while. So I think it will all go well.
Very sleepy this morning. Not sure what that’s about. Took my medicine so hopefully that will start to ease off. I’m going to lunch with Mary Jane tomorrow. I need more human interaction than I’m getting lately. So that will be fun.
Hope everyone has a good rest of the week.
I blew an appointment today–I had a time to get my hair cut and colored and forgot about it. SO I had to run out and do that in a hurry, But it’s done and I don’t have to worry about it again until August 1.
I feel like I could sleep all day. I dreamed that I was working as an assistant in a elementary school classroom and I woke up exhausted like I really had spent a day at work.
It feels like a long day already, I really do want to go to sleep.. I don’t have a lot I have to do today so I just might take a nap after lunch., Depends on what is going on.
I’ve sent out some more stuff yesterday so we will see how it turns out. I think I have 20 pieces circulating as of right now. Hopefully something will hit he wall and stick 🙂
Hope everyone is having a good start to their week. I appreciate all my readers and look forward to seeing more of you as time goes by. Have a good day.
Bob and I celebrated our anniversary a little early–taking advantage of our youngest being gone to go out to dinner at Shapley’s, a fancy steakhouse here in the Ridgeland area. Today’s the actual day–we’ve been married 24 years today. We’ve started trying to plan what we want to do on our 25th–we usually take a trip somewhere by ourselves every five years around it. But we will see what happens then.
Other than than that we had a slow weekend. The middle one went to the local COmicCon and brought me back a Charlie Brown book–a collection of all the prose writing of Charles Schulz. It’s a decent looking sized book and should keep me occupied during DTU while the youngest is dancing.
I’ve figured out what is bothering me so much about my thesis thus far. I haven’t included anything yet about being saved, so it’s all depressing. No one wants to read something with no redemption, but I’m scared no one wants to read about my redemption–particularly my thesis committee–an atheist, a gay Jew-ish man, and a writer who I know is a liberal politically. I’m praying about it, but all I know to do it fit it in chronologically and see what they say.
So my tooth turned out to be one of the few that wasn’t already crowned, so they drilled out the filling and the cavity that had developed around it and put a crown on it. I have to go back in two weeks and get the permanent one put on. $800 for my portion after insurance. Bleah. And then it ached last night. I took a hopped-up ibuprofen for it and slept really soundly. SO that helped. Now I’m looking at laundry and all such as that today.
My middle one is having friends over for a final get-together before they scatter for college. Of course its here as all of their parties have been ever since they started playing D&D. They’re going to play around a bit today and spend the night here, then go to ComicCon tomorrow. Bob and I are going to pop in to ComicCon and see what it is like. We’ve never been to one. SO we will see.
I really want to go back to bed. I am sleepy. But there’s too much to do, so we will see how much of it gets one once I get moving. Hopefully all of it. We will see. My mood seems to be pretty good; it’s just my motivation needs some kickstart.
So I go to the dentist today for a cleaning and to have them look at my back tooth. Fun fun fun.
I feel so bummed out. I think it is finally settling into my soul that my middle one will leave for college in less than two weeks. I know I will miss her. I’ve been trying to avoid that fact but I will. And I’m anxious about how my relationship with my youngest will change. I don’t really know what to do with her. I’ll have a month with her before school starts and I’m at a bit of a loss what all to do.
I’m also a little freaked out about this tropical storm headed for us, I don’t want to start flashbacking to Katrina or anything weird like that. I’m trying to keep a handle on my anxiety about it but am not sure what I will do if we lose power or have a spinoff tornado or something like that.
Just pray for me and my family as we move through the next few weeks and see how things go. I know I will need them.
Yesterday I took what I have written so far that has been through workshop, read by my professor and commented on, etc. I came up with a little over 100 pages when it needs to be closer to 280. The good thing is I have 100 pages on the meat of the story, starting when I first became really symptomatic through when I ran away to Louisiana.
So I need about 80 pages on my life before hand and 100 on my life afterwards. WIth varying degrees of episodes to talk about, I think I should get to the page count before the thesis year, which I hope to spend refining it.
So we will see. It will be a long process, but I think it will go well. The hope is to have a salable book out of it by the time I finish. I may have a novel as well taking two years of fiction workshop and forms. All I know is that it seems a long time away right now. I’m not quite halfway through the program.
We’re waiting on my mom and dad to pick up the youngest one and spend the better part of a week with them. They’ll come back Sunday. I think it’s going to rain the whole time, but maybe not, Maybe the tropical depression will spin out soon.
My girls went to the dentist today and got good reports. I go Thursday and I will need to have a tooth worked on I think–it hurts when I floss and is bad to get stuff caught in it and sometimes just aches for no reason. I don’t know if it’s already crowned or not (fairly certain that it is) so I may wind up with another root canal. Fun. But we will see,
I feel decent today considering everything. I’m sleepy but that’s nothing new. I’m working my way through my art journals from when I was breaking down but not yet diagnosed. I’m just not coming up with as much detail as I would like for this section. I’m ten and a half pages in and just about to my first hospitalization, which I will copy into this section. I just can’t remember as much about this time period as I do about Louisiana. at least I’m not triggering anything reading over it all again.
Speaking of triggers, a mini hurricane is headed for Louisiana with landfall in the next few days. Everyone is already making Katrina references and scaring me. But they say this one is just going to dump a ton of rain and that’s about it. SO we will see how things go.
I keep thinking there’s a real journal somewhere that I kept during that time but I can’t find it. Oh well.
So we went to see my dad on Saturday and Robert on Sunday. It all went fairly well. Bob stayed home with my middle one since she was still on a bland diet. So just me and the youngest one went to my parents’ house. We had a good trip in that we talked some and listened to some good music. I need to get used to her being the only child at home; that’s going to be a big switch in a couple of weeks.
I’ve been dragging this morning. Not sure why. I need to go to the grocery store for supper tonight and see what I can come up with. But I am very tired and not quite sure why.
I’m doing better on my mss than I thought I might. I am remembering more and doing a good job of jogging my memory. I’m only about two months into the nine-month period I haven’t written about before and I need to figure out how to prompt my memory for the rest of it.
I am trying an experiment. I am waiting to eat until I am actually hungry. That means I plan to eat around lunchtime my first meal today because I’m really not hungry this morning. Maybe if I quit shoving food down when it’s “mealtime” I can get a handle on my weight. WE will see.
Hope everyone has a good start to their week.