Archive | July 2017


I found out something new this weekend.  No one ever told me that my children were eligible for Social Security benefits when I was found disabled.  So now I am starting the process to try to get them the money they’re owed.  I have an appointment in two weeks to fill out the paperwork.  I’m really kind of stunned about this.  I’ve been disabled for eleven years and they all three should have been getting benefits until they turned 18.

So we went to the dance competition and it was all right. They got trophies for all the dances so that was good.  The youngest one had fun at all the classes.  My middle one came home while we were gone to get some things she had found out she needed.  SO that was kind of interesting.

But they were some long days of dancing, I’m glad to be home and everything.  But the youngest goes off to camp this week so I will be a little lonely.  But hopefully I can get back to writing and doing other things for the week.



So I spent yesterday getting everything together for my application to the college I hope to work for this fall.  I had to order my college transcripts online and pay for that.  It was a little bit of a tedious thing–I had to fill in an order form and all of that jazz.  But I got them done for MSU and MUW so that should be taken care of.  According to the English Department head, the MC people will approve me, and then he can schedule me for classes.  I don’t know if there is an interview somewhere in this process or not; I hope there is because I have lots of questions.

Today we are packing to go to dance competition.  I am not looking forwards to it but not dreading it either, so I count that as a plus.  We go to Biloxi this afternoon and dance for competition tomorrow.  Then they have two days of classes that we get to sit and read books through 🙂  We are going to try to visit Bay St. Louis Saturday after classes and see what we can find to see there.

So I will not be writing after today until Monday.  Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Good News!

I finally got a nibble on my calls about adjunct teaching. A private college in nearby Clinton, MS  called me yesterday and said they possibly would have some openings for fall but definitely for spring.  So I am jumping through all the hoops: filing out an application, requesting transcripts, and getting my CV in their hands.  One final step for the transcripts and everything should be complete.

I also wrote something really neat last night.  There was a contest for baseball writing.  I love baseball.  And I’ve wanted to do something on a particular baseball player that made a stop at a Mississippi independent team back in 1998.  I’ve wanted to write this story for almost 20 years.  And I was all ready to do my research and write this compelling story–and I saw the deadline was that night.  SO instead I went minimalist.  I wrote a nonfiction poem about this story under 200 words that got all the facts in and just shipped it off right after I finished it.  So we will see what they think.

I feel so much better than I did yesterday.  I hope this job really does work out. The department head sounded very encouraging.  So maybe it will.


Counseling Session

So I talked with my counselor about how down and bored I was feeling and we brainstormed on ways to try to figure out what I could do.  I really need to talk to Bob and try and figure something out with him that he can live with.  But I’m scared to, even though I have to.   We will see.



I seem to be sliding downhill and am very frustrated with myself for it.  I’m glad I’m going ot see my counselor tomorrow and see what we can d o to keep it from going full-out down to the bottom.

We do our final dance competition this weekend then the youngest goes off to camp for  church.  She’s gone there for a week, then Mom wants her to go to Camp Meeting.  Hopefully Bob can see his way to her doing that.

We’ll go grocery shopping after lunch and see what we can get for the week until we leave.  I think we’ll have breakfast tonight with bacon, eggs, and biscuits. Not sure about Tuesday and Wednesday.  We will see.


Just played a little parlour game on Facebook where you had to set up a concert with three bands each from the 80’s, 90’s, and 2000’s.   The 80’s was easy–Duran Duran, Van Halen, and Simple Minds.  The 90’s was harder in that I had a hard time remembering between the late 90’s and the early 2000’s.  I put down Ricky Martin, Backstreet Boys, and Britney Spears.

I had a lot of trouble with the  2000’s because there’s so much of it a gap in my memory, plus I really stopped listening to current music then because of one of the singers I put down–Eminem.  The other two were Gnarles Barkley and 3 Doors Down.  So that was a fun little project for memory lane.

Gotta do Bob’s laundry today.  Not sure of anything else I HAVE to do.  That’s going to be a chore enough.  I really want to go back to bed.  But I don’t need to do that.  I need to keep going for my youngest one’s sake.

Talked to the middle one last night, and she has one of the OLD college professors for her intro to psychology class.  I didn’t have him, but I heard a lot about him while I was there and it was all good.  She also likes her logic teacher so I think she will have a good month up there to get acclimated. I hope she enjoys the fun classes as much as she can because in the fall she leaps right into the engineering curriculum.


Just Waking Up

Well, I got about half of what I wanted to accomplish yesterday; I got the car and the groceries taken care of but not the swimming–my youngest wound up going with her grandmother for a while that afternoon.  And I wound up going to sleep.

I really hate this.  I was just so out of it and I’m not sure why  except maybe my meds acting on me a little strongly.  I got up at three and got a bit done but I just so desperately want to be done with bipolar disorder. But I can’t be. I just need to make the best life possible out of what I’ve got.  At least that was the first  time in a while I’ve done that.  So I just need to make sure it doesn’t happen again soon.

Chatted with Dr. Elliott at Belhaven yesterday.  I explained what all I could do and what all I would like to do, and he asked me to send my CV over to him.  SO maybe something will come out of that.  I just need pray for God’s will to be done.



Sunny Day

It’s a beautiful day here in Mississippi and I want to get out and do things.  I may go get my oil changed then go to the grocery store.  Then take my daughter swimming this afternoon.  We will see what happens.

I don’t think BOb is handling my middle one leaving early for school very well.  He’s bribing her to come back home for his birthday Saturday with a trip to see the new Spider-Man movie.  He’s really been leaning on her and it surprises me.  I never thought he would react like this.

WEll, if I’m going to the car place I need to cut this short.  I’m just glad I feel like getting out instead of moping around the house.  Hopefully this is a good sign.

Hope everyone has a good rest of the week.


4th of July

So we have kept busy today,  WE went shopping  for books with coupons and got a lot of good reading material for the month.  WE stopped and got ice cream and heard from our oldest–she’s on the breakfast shift all this week and she is doing really well with it, getting up early and all.  I am proud of her.

The middle one we have not hear from yet–she was supposed to visit her grandparents today and see my cousins and all for lunch then go back to campus and do some activities with her group.  SO we will see what we hear from her later on.

I got my grades from my residency and got an A. The only tick on my grade was that one of my reflective papers was too short by about half a page.  But it didn’t lower my grade that much so I still did well.

I feel like I need a nap,  I just hope I can slow down some and rest up until the next dance competition next weekend.  We will see.

HOpe every has a good and celebratory 4th of July today.


So we got my middle one moved into her dorm at Mississippi State University yesterday.  I did a little lifting but mostly stayed in the room guarding and unpacking stuff.  I made up the bed, etc.  She has a very nice-looking young lady for a room mate so that was nice.  No tears, just a little sadness but a lot of excitement as to what it going on.

We went out to Harvey’s for supper and had a nice meal so as to start her off right 🙂  She says she’s not going to eat out since State has better cafeterias that her sister did at her campus.  SO we will see how that works.  I just hope by everything she doesn’t develop what I have.  She’s done well at home with us but we will see what happens when she’s challenged a little bit.

Hope everyone has a good start to the rest of the week.  It will be a little quieter from now on, but we will make it.