Archive | May 2019

She’s Home

So my oldest is home from Disney World for a short visit.  She is busy figuring out what she wants to take back to her new apartment now that she has more space.  I am finishing breakfast and we will run to the grocery store in a bit.  My parents are coming down to see her for lunch and visiting this afternoon so that will be nice.

We had a busy weekend–out youngest had her dance recital Saturday so that was a little hectic.  But it’s good to have out of the way. It went well and my youngest performed beautifully.  My middle one got to come–it was the first dance recital she has ever been to as a spectator instead of a performer. So she said that was fun.

I  am happy to have had them home for a while even if they weren’t all three here at one time.  I am looking forward to spending time with the oldest and all.  Mentally I’m in a  good place right now–no hypomania or depression  on the horizon. I have a post coming up at on May 22 so you can pop over to take a look at that when the time comes.

I guess I will sign off and go help the oldest.  Hope everyone is having a wonderful start to their week.

Summer Project

I have come up with a summer writing project!  A few years ago, I bought the grandmothers some little books to fill out for their grandchildren about their life, how they grew up, etc.  I also bought three for me to fill up about myself for my kids.  So this summer I am going to work my way through filling one out for each child.  I think it’s going to be a great use of my time, and I can give them for Christmas if I finish them.  I’m looking  forward to it!

Today though I do some cleaning up around the house before I start on that. I/m waiting on Candy and Christy to get here to get started.  So we will see how that goes.

I set myself a challenge yesterday to come up with ten MORE stories to do on mental health for the possible job opening I have had come up.  ANd I did! SO we will see what happens on that front.  I guess there’s no shortage of ideas once you get serious about it.  I sure hope it comes through.

My residency class opened up on Canvas so I went ahead and sent my packets in and signed up for workshop times. I have Paulette Boudreaux as my workshop leader!  SO I am excited about that.  Hopefully everyone will play nice that week and we will work on our writing while being kind to each other.

WEll, I suppose that’s enough excitement for one post.  My oldest comes home Sunday night and we are looking forward to seeing her for the first time in a year. Love to all and hope you have a great weekend!


Don’t Know What To Write About

Today has been a pretty slow day so not much to say.  My middle one went back to State to pack up to go to GA on Sunday.  She made it there fine and is likely hard at work organizing her stuff.  My oldest comes in Sunday night so that is going to be fun.  We wil see what comes of the visit.

I’ve been sleeping in this morning so that seems to be how it is today. I have laundry to do and grocery shopping so I am getting a slow start on it all.  Tomorrow I have Candy and Christy come in a help me do some heavy cleaning to get ready for the oldest to get here so it doesn’t look like complete chaos.  I’ve found that stuff in the house I dread doing is easier once I get some help, whether it’s those two or one of the kids.  So we will see how it all comes together tomorrow.

Aside from the sleeping, I am generally coping well today.  I’m waiting on Bob to come in for lunch and see what news of the day he can bring in.  I asked three of my good friends at church to specifically pray for the opportunity I mentioned yesterday and for help with these empty days I am having so far this summer.  I am just in a very uncertain place right now waiting on God to move in my life.  So we will see what happens.  Hope everyone has a good rest of the week!


A Nice Maybe

Got wind of a very nice professional opportunity that would have me working as a freelance reporter again but this time in the mental health field.  The position depends on the organization getting a grant to fund pay for reporters so it may be a very long way off  before I hear anything from it.  But I am cautiously optimistic that this is just the opportunity that I have been looking for.  So hold that thought for me in your prayers.

Coping with hearing about something like this is difficult.  It’s hard not to build castles in the air thinking about it. But I just remind myself that it’s not my job–it’s God’s job and I just need to be patient and see where he leads me.

I am preparing to write my article for Defying Shadows–I am rereading all the books I want to recommend and forming the article in my mind.  We will see how it all goes.

WE will see about going through the rest of the day after I finish my sleep.  Hope everyone has a good Wednesday and a good rest of the week.

Busy Busy Day

SO I haven’t been able to blog until now because I have had a busy day.  I went to see Dr. Bishop and told him I was trying to find my next career move and all that I am doing to facilitate that.  So that was a good talk.  Then I went to my college I was working for and turned in samples of my students’ work for the QEP  requirement and filled out a change of grade score for my student.  So that wraps up that chapter in my life.

Then I went to lunch with my middle child and Bob, which was nice. We ate at Fannin Mart, a country cooking place we all three enjoy.  We really, really like their entrees and sides and desserts–it’s one of our favorite places to go.

I’ve been doing some more submitting lately and will see if anything I have out there turns out for me.  I’m mainly concentrating right now on my short story manuscript THis Side Of Heaven and my chapbook Under The Sun.  I got Katrina, my MFA friend, to read my chapbook and suggest an altered table of contents, as in a different arrangement of the stories, to see if that made any difference.  I did have them just in the order I wrote them in, but I thought I would try something more thematic.

WEll. I have a bit more to get done so I will run do those things.  Hope everyone has a good day!



Mother’s Day Recap

I had a wonderful Mother’s Day–restful and happy.  My youngest daughter wrote me a card she made with the sweetest note inside all on her own–it made me very, very happy.  Bob brought in pizza for lunch and that was nice.  We’re going out for my official Mother’s Day lunch next Sunday so  we could avoid the crowds yesterday at a place we like so that was the plan all along.

I fasted and  prayed and read my Bible this morning before going to see one of our pastors.  I had felt God move me to see if my suicidal thinking was coming from my bipolar or if it was from something else, because the past two times I have had it, it has jumped on me out of nowhere.  Before ti was a result of my depression getting so deep that I didn’t see any other way out.  But these last two times it wasn’t like that.  I still went to the hospital since that is what you do when you are suicidal, but I wasn’t depressed  at the time.

SO Jon Graef prayed over me to be healed of the bipolar and freed from any powers tempting me to suicide, and I feel tons better this morning as a result.  I feel protected and safe from those kinds of thoughts and I pray that they never return again.  I feel like I can move forward and enjoy life again instead of wondering when the next crash is going to hit.  SO that is my testimony this morning.

I have a lot of errands to run this afternoon so I will wind up and get going on what all I have to do.  Grocery store, laundry, etc. We will see how it all goes.


Nothing Much

To write about today.  I am just doing stuff around the house and wondering who is going to email me next about how unhappy they are about their grade.  Got one yesterday and he is trying to work out his issue and I may see an appeal from him.  We will see.

I am glad I am done with that class but I am not happy at the prospect of not teaching lit next semester.  I am basically bracing for not having a job and wondering what to do about it.  I have called around to other schools and they know I am available but will just have to wait and see what happens.  I am praying for an opportunity to work to come through somehow although I don’t know what it will look like.

I am in a stable place it seems–no suicidal thinking, no mania, no real depression on the horizon.  My danger period ends this weekend and anything popping up after that would be out of character and unexpected.  I go see Dr. Bishop next Tuesday so that is good–I should be able to report the good.

I suppose I need to get my day going and start laundry.  Prayers for the next direction  for my life are appreciated.  Happy Friday!


Rainy Rainy

WE start a projected five full days of  rain today.  It is so messy outside.  I wish it wasn’t like this.  Now that I have time off to walk, I can’t catch a break in the weather.

The middle one made it back to Starkville all right–she needs to get her allergy shot there and get the paperwork to move it to Georgia this summer. So she has work to do–but she’s going to have fun with friends, too so hopefully the trip will go well. She comes back Saturday.

WE had tornado sirens earlier this morning, but the bad stuff was north of us.  Now we just have solid rain.

Now that I’m through with everything I don’t know what to do with myself. I talked with my friend Marlo yesterday about me probably not teaching next fall and said I felt like I was going to be a loose ends about my life when I finshed my degree as well, because there’s no guarantee that anyone will publish my thesis when I finish it.

She mentioned a woman she talked with that is both a psychiatrist and a life coach who helped her see what the next phase of her career could look like, and she is exploring that.  I am seriously thinking about that for later on if I do have a lot of trouble writing after I finish.  Well, not trouble writing but trouble selling anything.  So we will see what we can come up with.

Anyway.  I guess that is where I will wind up–wondering what the future holds.   Don’t we all?   Happy Thursday!


Out to Lunch.

Gave my final this morning then went out to lunch with my friend Marlo.  She is a writing buddy of mine–she does magazines and all that kind of work so we get together to talk shop every few months or so.  We had a good time today–met up at 11:15 a.m. and didn’t run out of conversation until 12:45 p.m.  SO we talked a lot about current projects and stuff we are working on.  Lots of fun.

Need to start grading on my finals.  It’s still nice enough outside that I may go out and set up my radio and  grade in the sunshine.  We will see how it goes.  Then I have to incorporate the finals in the packets I am putting together for the QEP stuff at school. I will finish that and run it up to the school sometime next week.  SO that will be good.

Still feeling well.  Good thing for this time of year.  I am looking forward to writing my Defying Shadows post for this month and getting everything ready for my oldest to visit and to go to my residency after that.  Not sure what all I will write on this summer. I may work on the big draft of my thesis and see where to fit pieces together for the final copy or the working copy that I will bring to my thesis advisor. aopefully I can make some headway in that direction.  I hope so.

Well, I need to get on those papers–grades are due tomorrow at 10.  WIsh me well and wish e patience during this final grading spree.  Have a good day!

Early Morning

Found out yesterday that one of my students on the softball team was not going to be here for the final tomorrow so I am up at school early to give it to her this morning.  SO very sleepy.  But we will see how long it takes her and get it nailed down.

ANd I come back in the same time tomorrow to give it to everyone else.  Then grade madly and calculate and get the grades in ASAP.  Soo much fun!

Turned in my final for Memoirs and will write my final for Drama this morning.  That should be fun.  We will see how it works out.  I’m going to wait until I am fully awake before I start that.  I’m not quite there yet.

Not sure of what else to write about.  Nothing new on any front right now.  I am just going to wait on residency and see how that goes.  I’m looking forward to several different things, but just have to wait for them to get here.   My middle one goes back to Starkville THursday to get her allergy shot  and meet up with some friends.  She’ll be back for Mother’s Day though so that will be nice.

We finally went and saw Avengers: Endgame on Sunday.  It was a nice ending to all the collected movies and it didn’t seem contrived or forced.  I didn’t even feel how long it was–about three hours.  I usually can’t sit that still that long for any movie but this one kept my attention.  I thought that was impressive.

I’m feeling really stable right now–no obsessions, no suicidal thoughts, no manic symptoms, no real depressive symptoms, so we will see how the rest of this spring goes.  I am seriously considering doing my last short residency this fall but have to talk to Bob about working out the details.

Hope everyone has a good day today.  Happy Tuesday!