Archive | December 2019


Mississippi has been hit with a strong string of tornadoes across the state. Our particular area was spared, but the damage is bad in some areas. Pray for those hardest hit in South Mississippi and in the Edwards area nearby.

My stories about disability determination services came out yesterday on MCIR. I’ll get my check soon for them as well.  So that is good news. Maybe they will pop up in local news outlets soon–we will see.

Finished with wrapping except for when my oldest’s presents come in for me to wrap.  I will be doing that in the next couple of days hopefully. I do still need to wrap the photographs and frames but am trying to figure out a way to do that to protect them better this year from being broken in transit.

I think I am going to go back to bed. I am sleepy and there is nothing to be awake for at the moment. Thanks for reading, and happy Tuesday!



SO far Monday has started off pretty okay–went and picked up Bob’s new computer from Best Buy after they did the software installation, etc.  WE’re going to donate the old one to our old daycare if they can use it.

We had a pretty uneventful weekend; we went to the Christmas program at church Saturday night and it was very good–lots of good music and performances.

I have things I need to do but I am very, very sleepy.  Not sure if any are going to get accomplished today.  I’m done with my semester so that makes me happy–it was a very good exercise and I got a lot of good work down on paper.  Not sure what next semester is going to be like but we will see.  Then thesis.

We also looked at office furniture for when we convert my youngest’s old bedroom to an office later next year   We saw some really pretty options and I look forward to getting it done.  But I need the middle child to be home for some time to help me clean it out of her stuff.  So that’s going to be interesting to schedule.

Well. let’s see what else I can get accomplished.  Pray for y energy to hold up to finish wrapping and doing for Christmas.





SHopping was incredibly successful this year-we got everything on the list and a few extras for the bingo party upstate with my mom’s family.  I’ve even got a lot wrapped already where I got a burst of energy once we got home.  WE shipping presents to my oldest now that we have them all–Bob took them out to ship this morning. I hope hope hope they are careful with them packing since some of it is fragile–the framed Christmas cards especially.  I prayed over those so they would make it successfully.

I wish I could sleep in but I need to revise my paper and get laundry done this morning.  THe painter is here working on the garage so that will be taken care of from where y oldest punched a hole in it with the car.

We gave my mother-in-law her birthday present yesterday–her birthday is Tuesday  SHe enjoyed looking at it in the box–she said she would take it out and set it up when she got home–it was a china Christmas tree from Lenox.  I hope she does enjoy it–I think it will be sitting on her table Christmas morning.

Well, I need to start typing on my paper.  Wish me well.


Shopping Day

So today Bob and I go shopping together for the rest of the Christmas presents. We will see how this goes.  I think ti will go well since he enjoys buying things for Christmas–searching out the best presents, etc.

We’re going to eat lunch and dinner out and have good conversations, I hope. WE have a good bit still to look for but not as behind as we were the day before Thanksgiving.

I finished up my disability story (I hope) and look to do my revision for class if we come in this afternoon.  Then I will be done for the semester.

I did Christmas cards yesterday and still have the families to do.  I got Bob’s work people done so that was big.  We’re going to send them out today.

And after shopping comes wrapping!  So that will be fun.


Too Much Fun

As you may have seen in yesterday’s comments, I wound up getting another crown in my mouth at the dentist’s. I had a fracture under a big filling so they just decided to crown it since it would take so much drilling to clean it out.

Then I went to see Tillie.  We had a good talk as well and I talked to Bob last night again.  I told him I had noticed that during the weekend he really seemed ot make an effort to talk sweet and be kind and I appreciated it.  But I also told him I didn’t want to keep putting myself in a position to be hurt so badly again. He seemed to get that.

\ I need to revise my story for MCIR and need to start on my revision for class.  I am so tired right now.  But I’ll work on all that this afternoon.

I’m going to go get ready for the day and see what I can do.  Hope everyone has a good day.



So Hectic

Bob asked me last night what I had going on today–and I suddenly remembered I had a dentist’s appointment in addition to an appointment with Tillie.  So that will make things complex this morning.  I had to call Candy and let her know and the guy fixing and painting our garage.  Hope everyone got their messages and it’s all lined out.

WE’re going to have a blue garage interior–we don’t know the original paint formula so we are just repainting it to match the interior of the house.  As I expected, we’re putting off the office renovation until February so our oldest daughter and her boyfriend can come and stay with us for a visit to meet him. So that is how that will go.H

I need to do my last assignment for class this afternoon and then I will be finished with school until mid-January.  The start over with a brand-new class they are offering, so that will be interesting to be the guinea pig for that.  Then I am done with classwork and will work on my thesis starting in the summer and going forward until defense the next summer.

So I have a lot to look forward to.  Hopefully it will all go according to plan and I will have my degree on schedule.

Hope everyone is having a good week. Happy Tuesday!




Got some really cool news this weekend–I entered a statewide playwriting contest earlier in the year with my 1-800 play and found out yesterday (though a truly weird series of events) that I won second place and that my friend and classmate Courtney won first!  A double win for the program!

All I really get out of it is the recognition–she gets a staged reading of her play and a cash prize.  But that’s okay. I’ll send it off next year to the SETC contest and see how it does there

In other news, I am no longer actively angry.  What I am is hardened.  I’m not going to be treated like this or hurt again. I am taking steps. And that is all I have to say about that.

I need to write my MCIR article today and then start on my last revision for my class.  Then I can concentrate on getting ready for Christmas.




Still Angry

ANd slipping into a deep depression because of it. I can’t seem to organize my mind around doing anything–Christmas, writing, nothing, I don’t know what to do with the anger.  I have an appointment with Tillie on TUesday but I’m not sure I can last that long.  I have too many deadlines to give it any more space in my head. I just need to write through this week and then I can concentrate on Christmas but it’s going to be so hard.

I’m trying to take care of myself as much as possible.  I’m trying to get lots of sleep, trying not to hurt myself with food, and just handle business as it comes.  Talking to people.  What scares me is trying to finish everything up for school and not sure if I’m going to be able. And do my other story for MCIR.  I/m just frozen solid.

I need another dose of good news.  Because right now everything looks pretty bloody bleak.



We had a good service at church last night where Brad talked about potential in all of us.  He said that Jesus has opened a door for each of us that no one can shut–he pulled verses out of Isaiah and Revelation for the imagery.  I feel so much better knowing I am helping people with my writing and that I can expect more doors to open in the future.  I won’t be in this mental place forever, I won’t be so vulnerable forever.

Still not really up for doing anything much even though encouraged.  I need to write a paper for class and do a story for MCIR.  If that’s all I accomplish this week I will feel good.  I just don’t have long to do it in now.  But it always gets done.

Hope everyone has a good rest of the week and a good weekend.  Thanks so many of you for your encouragement.



I Don’t Know What To Write

I feel very hopeless today.  I don’t want to do anything. I don’t even really want to write here but feel like I should. I don’t know if this is holiday blues or fallout from yesterday and the feeling that the whole conversation went in one ear and out the other. I realized today that I never even got an “I’m sorry I hurt you” from Bob yesterday. ALl I got were excuses and talk about me being too sensitive. It makes me despair of ever having a voice here.

I need some good news.

UPDATE:  I got some good news.  My story about rollerskating over forty hit the Covey Club this month under “A Reinvention on Roller Skates”