It feels dangerous to say this out loud. I am truly happy right this moment. I’m settled in to my writing, I have a direction I haven’t felt in a long time, I have a happy family life, and I feel right in my head for the first time in a long time. I have friendships, I have good music, I feel right in my own skin.
Having said all that, I’m afraid for the other shoe to drop.
But I can’t live in that space, afraid for the future. I need to be joyful and happy where I am. I don’t need to rest alone in my circumstances but in my eternal rescue as well.
Nothing in particular has brought me this feeling today–it’s just there. And I am glad for it. Thankful and glad.