Archive | May 2020

Meme

I saw a picture yesterday of a woman standing outside in her yard. The caption was “Let’s see which chapter of Revelations we’re going to be living today.”

We will never have peace until we unite as one under the love of the one who gives us eternal peace in his precious holy name.  Until then, we can fight for justice to be done.

 

New Ideas

I had three new ideas percolate up from my brain for stories for the MCIR so I will start work on those Monday. I had wondered last time what I was going to do with June but my editor liked all three ideas so there went that. And I’m glad too because I was so bored yesterday.

Today is going to be an easy day–Bob and my youngest are going driving for a while and we will go eat lunch at Primos’ today. THen not sure what we’re going to to do.  My youngest discovered a coloring scrapbook/journal in her room while cleaning out and has been filling it in the past few days.  SO she has been occupying herself well.

I found out how to make my office CD player go on repeat after finishing a CD. This will make my life so much better not having to get up and switch out CD’s all the time; I can just let it roll over and keep playing, and I’ll keep typing. (I’m all about such small victories now.)

I told Bob yesterday that it was so nice to go about my days feeling blessedly normal. He agreed. I hope to stay like this for quite some time. Watching out for mania as well as depression, but not have anything imminent lurking over the horizon in either department. Doesn’t mean I can’t still speak out on these issues, but it means I can do so from a wellness space instead of a illness one.

Guess I will sign off for the day and see what I can do to get ready for the day. Hope everyone is doing well and staying safe. Godspeed.

 

 

Loose Ends

So now I don’t know what to do with my writing time. I will continue to write here, and I think I have another project that will take up June. So it won’t be too tough, I don’t think.

I so hope my insurance company approves Latuda.  I’ll continue to take it since so far as I can tell, I am in remission again, thank the heavens. Otherwise I wouldn’t have pulled off that book in a month. So I am feeling very good about my mental health right now. But it is obscene that it will eat every bit and then some of my benefit check from Social Security. I need to find some way of writing about this–but finding someone to interview about their experience will be very difficult, I think.

But I can give it a try.

Let’s see what we can get going on.  Hopefully everything will continue to keep coming together and I can do the story I’ve already contracted for and maybe this one on medication prices as well.  Wish me well.

Hope everyone continues to be safe from the virus and is doing well.  Thanks for all your support here. Godspeed.

 

FINISHED!

I have finished my rough draft of my thesis! 349 pages. 91K+ words. A whole BOOK!

I am so excited I don’t know what to do with myself. I didn’t think I would pull this off so quickly. I thought it would take at least another month. Now I have a month to read my bibliography books again and then take July to start some cleaning up and ease some transitions in it so I can give it to my thesis director in August. There are some essays that are likely not going to make the final cut to be included, but I included them in it anyway so we have all our rough material on the table.

I suppose I need to go to the grocery store and pick up a few things for dinner–I’ll do that after Bob leaves from lunch.  I’m going to do my best to continue to make it the most amazing day ever. 🙂

Hope everyone has an amazing day! Godspeed.

 

Almost There

I am just about done going through my old documents for bits and pieces or whole documents  to slot into my thesis.  I’ve only got a couple more to do but I am saving them for tomorrow–I’ve already done a lot of work this morning. It’s amazing how fast it’s gone.  I had no ideas I’d be this far ahead of my projections.

Had a good session with Tillie yesterday. We talked about making sure I didn’t get to tied up in the thesis work that I let other things go, so I’ll be working on that this afternoon. I’ll start my laundry this afternoon and see what else I can do.

My mood is holding.  Found out that BCBS never got my paperwork because whoever does this is my doctor’s office sent it to the wrong insurance portal. So that’s supposed to be corrected and maybe I will get good news about that after all. It would be nice.

I’ve had some amazing exchanges with some of you recently about what  I’ve written across various platforms. Just know what while doing something like this is great therapy for me, I am also doing it for you readers so that you may see yourself in something I write and it helps you in some small way.  Or a big way.  Don’t hesitate to reach out to me in the comments, or over Twitter or Facebook, and let me know how I can help you.  I want to educate and encourage people with bipolar disorder as well as any other mental illness. Thanks for letting me be a part of your lives.  Godspeed.

 

 

 

 

Baby Girl is Home

Mom and Dad brought my youngest home this morning, before my appointment with Tillie. So I went and did that and it went well. WE strategized about ways to maybe convince Blue Cross/Blue Shield of Mississippi to cover my Latuda– she suggested I call and find out who to talk to and try to convince them to do it. I don’t know how much good it will do, but we will see.

I’m a little more tired today than I have been. I don’t know why.  Soon I will have to go to the grocery store and pick up a few things–I may do that while my youngest is at her hair appointment. I don’t know yet.

I’m down to just filling in some holes in my story now on my thesis. I’ll go back to the original manuscript as I wrote it before I started school and fill some of that material in. I’ll probably do that once we get home from getting her hair cut.  So we will see about that and how late we get home.

I’m going to go finish lunch.  Hope everyone is staying safe and well during the pandemic still. Godspeed.

 

Memorial Day

Thank you to everybody who has served in the military protecting the US from its enemies in war.  That is the holiday we celebrate today in the US. Especially those who gave the ultimate sacrifice.

I think I will work on my section in my thesis today about my dad, an Army veteran who fought in Vietnam, to honor the day further. I just realized upon reading the whole thing as it is so far last night that I have written a good bit of material about my dad in the past and I can compile it into its own chapter.

But that also means I need to write an equivalent chapter on my mom, and I have written almost nothing about her essay-wise.  That’s going to have to be written up out of whole cloth.  I just have to rely on what I have been doing so far, which is writing each section of difficult material when I was ready.  And that is going to be difficult.

And I will spend time today with Bob and my youngest will come back tomorrow delivered by my parents. So we will see how it all goes.  We had a good day yesterday so that was nice.

My mood is holding well so far this week–I goofed up last night and since we didn’t eat a big dinner I forgot to take my dinner medicine until right before bed. So that wasn’t fun.  But I’m hoping since I got it into my system that I can make it today.

SO hopefully we can all stay safe this holiday weekend and not let the virus get out of hand again. Wishing every one well today.

 

Fun

I had fun at the Zoom social.  We talked writing most of the time and that was good.  We all had a good time, I think.  #veryone participated as far as I could see. We had about 24 people. I’d love it if we could make that a regular thing, especially for those of us in the throes of thesis so we could be connected still to others and not be laboring alone. So I think I will suggest that.

We have Sunday School this morning so that will be nice online as well.  Then church. Then we’ll go somewhere for lunch Bob says. Not sure what else we will do for the rest of the day.

I’m running up on a new problem in my thesis work–I’ve written so much in different classes and publications now that as I get further into my essays that I am repeating myself in the essays.  So I’m not able to pull out quite as much material as I was at the beginning because I’ve already covered the material somewhere else. I’m going to have one heck of an acknowledgements page.

ANyway.  I need to run and get ready for Sunday School.  Hope everyone is having a great day for this Memorial Day weekend.

 

Long Drive

SO we got up early this morning and I drove my youngest to spend a few days with my parents. We made it up in record time )no traffic) and I sat down and visited for a while then got back home before lunch hour was over.  Then Bob and I went to the Mexican place for lunch and had a good time there.  We were going to go to the farmer’s market, but it started raining kind of hard so we came back home.

Now I’m about ready to work on my thesis for the day and then I might take a nap with my early start.  I have been really encouraged with my mood that I’ve stopped being so sleepy all the time and that I can get up at six if I want to. If I take a nap this afternoon it will mostly be to pass the time; it won’t be like it used to be where I simply couldn’t keep going.

My MFA program is having a social hour tonight over Facebook to coincide with the Full Residency that they are doing virtually.  I think I’m going to go online and participate for a little while, see who all is there and chat for a bit.  Something to do.  Sounds like it might be fun.

I asked Bob if he wanted to participate and he looked kind of scared! I know he would feel out of place so I didn’t push it. But I will plan on that later tonight and see what else happens today.  I guess I’ll kick of the next page of files of thesis essays to look at.  Hope everyone is having a good day!

Oops

I woke up this morning thinking it was Saturday and I needed to be up to carry my youngest daughter  to my parents’ house for her to stay a few days.  I was up a good thirty minutes before I realized it was Friday and I was all dressed up with nowhere to go. So I goofed off and slept some more and am now ready to face the day.

I did laundry, cut up the last of the strawberries. and called Bob. My favorite radio station has changed formats! It used to play all 80’s music and is now “Jackson’s Alternative” whatever that means nowadays. I am so sad.  I guess I’ll go back to CD’s and give up on commercial radio altogether. So thoroughly irritated.

I am meeting Bob and Rachel for lunch at Kismet’s.  Bob talked Rachel into coming in to work for him all day today in the office filing. She’s been going in some afternoons and doing well and he hopes they can get caught up a bit before statements time comes around. She’ll want to  be gone off with her grandparents if he pushes work too hard.  So we will see how it goes.

I guess I will start next on my thesis. I’m adding pages steadily to that is good. I’m not quite halfway through my list of essays to review but I slowly chipping away at it. I think it’s going to go really really well today’; I’m all fired up to work on it and am looking forward to it.

So let’s get to it.  Hope everyone is doing well and coronavirus is easing off everywhere like it is here. Godspeed.