Archive | October 2021

Very Tired

Tired. Not sleepy–tired. I’m not sleeping worth squat at night. I am tossing and turning and probably making Bob miserable. I tried laying back down this morning to catch up, but it was the same thing–no sleep but a lot of staring at the ceiling. I am wondering if it isn’t my back bothering me that is the culprit. I don’t know. All I know is that I feel miserable right now. I’m not anxious or anything–I just hurt in my back and feel bad from lack of good sleep.

My oldest goes back to work today. I hope their childcare plan works out–my son-in-law is supposed to keep the baby during the day until he has to go in, then the baby goes to his other grandparents until my oldest can get off and pick him up. I hope it all works out.

I’m going to eat lunch and then start typing on my MCIR stories. I finished the BPHope one yesterday and was so glad to be done with it. I think I will feel the same way when I get these done. I already have another to work on so I will see how it goes. Hope everyone has a good rest of the week and weekend. Godspeed.

Trouble

I’m having trouble concentrating on writing again. I started my BPHope post and froze up. I need to get my act together, I don’t know why this has become so hard all of a sudden. I don’t know what could be locking me up. My MCIR stuff needs to get done, too. I do not want this to be such a severe problem that I can’t work when/if I get the opportunity. I am so frustrated with this feeling of inadequacy.

Bob is sounding sicker and sicker. But he is taking a light cough syrup that allows him to still work so that is good.

My oldest got a mixed report from her doctor. When they were operating they found another cyst they hadn’t been able to see on ultrasound. And they were two different kinds of cysts. They want her to follow up in six months to see if anything regrows from it since they decided to leave the affected ovary in. But she is cleared to go back to work and will do so Thursday. I asked her to call and let us know how the day went tomorrow. I just pray, pray, pray it goes well and she will be able to return to work without further stress and worry.

I guess that is all that I have to say. Please pray that I can have a breakthrough on doing all of my work and can get it done. And that Bob can get to where he feels better as well. Godspeed to all.

Tillie

Saw Tillie today and had a good conversation with her–got a lot off my chest about things. I am very tired because I did not sleep well with my back acting up. I just hope the pain goes away soon because I can’t seem to take NSAIDS any more. They made me sick at my oldest’s house and before that shot my liver panels up with my doctor. So I am just hoping that being careful can help it.

I am waiting on my oldest to call about her doctor’s appointment to follow up on her surgery. I hope everything is fine. She is supposed to go back to work Thursday. I hope it goes well.

I am trying to accomplish more today–finish the BPHope story and get to work on the others. I just wish I felt physically better. I think I am going to get a heating pad and see if it helps. It didn’t happen overnight so I know it’s not going to leave me that quickly either. But I just want to feel better.

Bob has so far been able to stay at work. I hope he can keep doing better. The cold snap is probably not helping him any either. But it does feel nice outside.

I guess I will sign off and go get the heating pad. Hope everyone is doing well and staying safe from the virus. Godspeed everyone.

Settling Down

Trying to get back into the swing of things. I slept so solid last night that I had a hard time waking up. But I will not go back to sleep–I have a lot to do today and will be busy doing it. I need to do laundry, grocery shopping, and writing.

I will work first on the BPHope column while I am waking up :). Then do the MCIR stories throughout the day. I plan to work steady and stay busy all day. I’m going to start laundry in just a minute once Candy is done getting sheets changed.

Sent off another job application–part-time at University Press of Mississippi. They will probably wonder why I am applying for a part-time job. But part-time work may be just what I need rather than full-time. We will see. I will have to wait and see if I hear from them.

I feel better having had some tea this morning. I drank so much Coke at my oldest’s house. But that’s what they had so that’s what I drank. But I can get back to normal with that as well.

I guess now I will start on my column. Hope everything is going well with everyone else. Godspeed.

Home

So nice to be home. We meant to go to church this morning, but I slept through the alarm I think and Bob decided to let both of us sleep. My youngest came in very late from her competition, he said. So we will likely go eat lunch soon; I need to decide on what I want.

I miss the baby. He was so giggly and happy when he was fed no matter how early in the morning it was. I hope he was good for them after I left.

I got kind of a surprise–a journalist came across my name for an article she was doing on medical misdiagnosis for Everyday Health. So we talked over the phone and email this weekend about my story. So that was interesting.

I am looking forward to seeing Tillie on Tuesday. It’s been a bit. I am excited to tell her how well I did on the trip.

Need to do more laundry today and will go to the grocery store tomorrow after Candy and Christy come. Bob is still pretty sick, but I hope he can go to work tomorrow. I think he’s going to try.

I guess I will go get the youngest up and get ready to go get lunch. Hope everyone is staying safe still. Godspeed.

Last Morning

So today I head back to Mississippi. The baby slept until five this morning so that was good. He’s gone back to sleep now so that I can pack, etc. My oldest has had a bad night–she’s been coughing on and off the whole time. But we will see what happens. I hope she will be okay.

I look forward to getting back home and getting some rest! 🙂 But I will also have things to do. At least I am operating better than usual. Probably due to the abundance of Cokes in the house. I will need to get back used to tea.

I feel pretty good right now. Almost like. . . my old self? I’m scared to say that. I don’t know why being down here would bring that back. I think that maybe I’m just used to taking care of babies? It. . . feels normal? Or maybe I’m just. . . staying busy and my mind doesn’t have time to spin? Whatever it is, I hope it hangs around. I so need some direction and ability to keep my mind occupied.

Found a new job to apply for–it calls for computer skills I’m not sure I have but I’m going to go for it anyway. Let’s see what I can do.

I guess I will go pack now. I need to change and to make all of my stuff fit back into the carryon :). That should be fun. Off I go. Godspeed.

Last Full Day in Florida

So I head out tomorrow. I need to do my information this afternoon and make sure the flight is still flying. I pray so because Bob reports his allergies have taken a turn for the worse and he cannot work today–he had to take Nyquil and go to bed. So he’s out of commission for now.

I just had lunch and put the baby down for his midday nap. I have so enjoyed him and plan to take more pictures today so I can replace mine on Facebook and look at them and remember how much fun I had taking care of him and playing with him. I have also enjoyed time with my oldest.

We went out to eat last night at Ford’s Garage–a burger joint in town–the same chain that my oldest took the family to when she first came to Florida. The noise was a little overwhelming to the baby so they stepped out as soon as they finished and I got the bill, etc. while waiting by myself. But I had shrimp mac & cheese and it was SO GOOD.

I finally got an inconclusive answer from the outfit I was waiting on information from for my MCIR story. So I will try to start work on that Monday after I rest up during the weekend. I’ll also do my BPHope story too.

I have held up well, but I’m scared once I get safely home that I will collapse. I’m going to try to forestall that and be rested up for once the week starts. It will help that I see Tillie on Tuesday. That will be a big help.

Guess I will run for now. I wil catch up on social media while I wait for the 24-hours-before-my-flight process. If I can stay awake that long.

Weary

The baby slept through the night again if you call 10 pm to 5 am the night. But he went back down later and so did I. My son-in law was up and did a lot of work to clean up overnight since he was off work. He’s off again today so maybe he can play with the baby some before I leave. We will see how it goes.

I’m just going to have to write my MCIR story without all the information I wanted. We will see when I get back. So sleepy.

I have enjoyed being with my grandson though. He is so good-natured when he’s awake and full and dry and happy. He loves to play with the toys I brought. My oldest and I went to Wal-Mart yesterday and bought some clothes for him for later on and some more toys. And formula, etc. We are trying to help them as much as we can while I am here. But my oldest goes back to work next week and that will put them back on a good footing soon.

Well, I think that is all for today. I am in a good mood considering everything. I go home Saturday if the airlines get their act together. I hope to fly back so Bob won’t have to drive down. We will see.

Nighttime

Baby slept until 5 am without a feeding last night! So that was good that he is getting back to normal for him. He tried to wake up one time and I gave him his pacifier since his eyes weren’t open yet, and he went right back to sleep. So that made everyone feel better with a good night’s sleep.

My oldest overdid yesterday when I was sick and is paying for it today. But hopefully she will start feeling better today. My back is not as bad so maybe I am getting used to the lifting and bending.

I’m soon going to eat lunch and try to rest up from messing with him all morning. I am still holding up better than I ever expected to but will be glad to get home–I miss Bob and my youngest.

I went into the baby’s room this morning to grab something and found one of the dogs in my blowup bed I’ve been sleeping on. (Have I ever mentioned that dogs are not my favorite?) So I chased her out and let her go in the room with my son-in-law, who was still asleep. He works a afternoon/night shift and has to sleep pretty late.

Well, I’m going to get my lunch. Hope everyone has a good day. I hope to go shopping for the baby today–larger clothes, new formula, a few more toys, etc. We will see how it goes. Godspeed.

Sick

I got sick this morning with dry heaving. So I have not really had a lot to do with the baby today. My oldest went out and got me some Pepto, and I am eating some toast for lunch so I can take my meds. Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow.