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I felt good yesterday. But I was SO LAZY. I didn’t accomplish anything. I’ve got stuff to be doing and I can’t seem to make myself do anything useful. What use is feeling right if I can’t motivate myself to do what I need to do? And today feels like more of the same.

Tomorrow I am going to buckle down–I don’t have any appointments and it’s the last Monday I’ll have off until the Christmas holidays. So I need to clear two projects off my plate so I can start re-writing and re-drafting on my memoir project. We will see how it goes.

I did not sleep well last night–my cough kept me up. I never woke up enough to grab a cough drop from my bedside table, so I just kept coughing. Very frustrating.

I think after lunch I am going to try to sleep some. Either that or go shopping at another bookstore with birthday money. I tried going clothes shopping on Friday and yesterday and simply could not find anything I wanted to spend money on. It’s all pioneer-girl dresses and ugly colors. And ripped-out knees on pants. UGH.

I suppose that enough complaining. I’m going to go get something to eat and then decide what to do. Hope everyone else has a good day. Godspeed.

Whoops

Somehow I forgot my meds last night.

So we will see how today goes. I am about to take my day meds so I won’t forget those, too.

But no–I was tossing and turning this morning and couldn’t figure out why I kept waking up. About 4:30 a.m. I realized why. So that was disheartening. But I’ll remember this morning and take what I need to.

I will be going into work this morning and seeing what kind of day it is. It should be good. Better than yesterday–I got caught in traffic yesterday and didn’t get there until a half-hour late. But the day improved after that so that is good. I kept a good attitude so that helped me keep up with the work and get everything done.

I guess I need to get going. Pray that everyone has a good day today. Godspeed.

I Just Don’t Know

why I’m having so much trouble with this MCIR story. And I know I won’t get anything else done on it this week until MAYBE Friday because I am so brain-fried after working my UPM job. I NEED to finish it. This story NEEDS to be out. I don’t know why I’m so frozen up on it.

Otherwise it’s looking like a good day–I’ll be working at the office today so will need to leave in a few minutes. Composing news releases today so that is always intricate and fun. And I do the blog again first thing this morning so that is neat as well.

I guess after that whine I need to pick up and go. Pray that today will go well and I will stay cogent all day and maybe can get something done on my MCIR story this afternoon. I want it turned in and finished but have to work on it for that. It’s not ready by any stretch of the imagination.

Godspeed.

Trying to Work

I am trying to settle into doing my MCIR work and being so distracted. I’m sleepy today for some reason and am having some trouble focusing on the story and not on the blank page. The focus should not be on me–it should be on the story i am telling. I think maybe the weight of it is what is getting me right now. It’s a very sad topic I am writing on and I want to handle it correctly and I just am not sure of myself doing it right.

Bob is opening up his office since his partners are on the road for the next two weeks. He said things are slow enough that they can work with a reduced staff but getting up early is killer for him–he likes to sleep. So we will see how he does today.

I am doing pretty good even though I woke up with him–I was able to go back to sleep so that was good–I got in a couple of extra hours. I have other housework to do–my laundry most of all. But I will get to it, I’m sure.

I am already hungry for lunch. 😦 I need to get busy and get my mind off of eating. But I so want something good to eat. I am thinking about going out for lunch by myself and see what I can come up with to eat. I may just get a meat-and-three from the grocery store deli. That sounds REALLY good right now. Surprise Bob with it when he gets home.

Well, i guess I need to get back to it. Hope everyone is having a good day and can ease into the workweek with a minimum of problems. Godspeed.

Very Slow This Morning

I’ve had quite the slow start. I slept in a bit–I got up on time to take my meds and say goodbye to Bob, then I just laid back down for a bit. So I am just now getting going. We will see how the rest of the day goes.

I will be working this morning and afternoon on freelance stuff, household stuff, etc. Going grocery shopping, laundry, etc. Nothing too exciting. I am glad for a day of nothing too exciting.

I know Queen Elizabeth II has passed away, and I do not discount the suffering that the sadness at her passing will create for her family and the country. But the monarchy in Britain has long been ceremonial in nature. Charles might surprise us all, but I think the installment of another PM there will have more effect on the people than the death of QEII.

Well, I have an appointment in a few minutes so I will run. Hope everyone has a good day and weekend. Godspeed.

Getting Going

So I had a bad night last night. Bad dreams and bad sleep on top of it. I’ll be taking my meds in a bit, and I will certainly need them.

I go to the office again today. I tried doing as much basement work as I could, and I had to quit because my arms started hurting from moving all the books around. So I did officy work to rest them and wound up not being able to really work at the end of the day because my wrist ached from “mousing”. SO I kind of felt like I couldn’t win yesterday. But I will do better and take more breaks and try to not overuse certain muscle groups today.

I found out something pretty disheartening yesterday and I am trying to forgive myself for putting my foot in my mouth a few months ago. I’m not going to get into what because I am ashamed of myself. But I would like to make it right and don’t know how. All I can do is pray for it to resolve itself.

Well, I will go and get ready. Hope everyone has a good day. Godspeed.

Sunday Morning

Just got through watching church on the internet. Bob set the alarm to get up but didn’t. So he is still sleeping. I know he’s avoiding church because of his mourning. I’m not sure he knows that. I watched it online and feel good for having gotten up and at least heard from God this morning, even if I didn’t go and fellowship with others. I could have gone by myself but I felt bad doing that.

We do have a lunch date today at Mugshots. We are meeting Rachel and Anthony and we always have a good visit with them. So that is what we are going to be up to today. Then I will come back and write some more. I still haven’t finished my MCIR story. But I hope to work on it this afternoon after lunch. As always, I am having a hard time getting started. But I’ll manage.

So long for today. Hope everyone has a good Sunday. Godspeed.

Update

My youngest is fine. Her rear bumper is a little dented but otherwise it is fine and drivable. So that was a huge relief.

Still working from home with the water troubles in Jackson. Word has it that parts were expedited from a big company in Florida that does this kind of work around the country. Hopefully the emergent part will be over soon and then everyone can get down to brass tacks with fixing it all from start to finish. Which will take DECADES. Jackson still has clay piping systems in some older neighborhoods that date from the Civil War.

My nerves have settled considerably, and my new medicine has driven away the morning grogginess that was driving me so crazy. I’m caught up at work and have the chance to do more now than I was doing instead of just fighting to stay above water. So we will see how it all goes.

My mood is pretty stable right now. We go up for Labor Day to meet my middle one and my mother-in-law for lunch Saturday then come home. My youngest is staying up there with my mother-in-law, and my youngest and her boyfriend will run over and see my parents for a little while on Sunday, then the youngest will stay over another night with my mother-in-law and come home Labor Day. I wish we could go to the game, but they serve catfish in the concessions at the game now so we can’t risk him having an allergy attack.

I turned in another story at BPHope about secondary trauma, and I sent another one to NAMI about my going off my meds for my colonoscopy that I hope they will take. I’m sure it will need editing, but I’d love to place another one on their site. Tomorrow I start up with an article for VeryWell Mind about telehealth, so that will be interesting as well.

I guess that’s everything for today. I need to get ready for work. Hope everyone has a good day.

Scared

My youngest just texted Bob; she’s been rearended on the way to school. I don’t know how bad it is–I just pray that it’s not as bad as mine was. I hope she’s okay. He wouldn’t let me come with him because he didn’t know exact details–but I fully expect to have to take her to school and what not. And just when my anxiety seemed under control. I don’t know what else to say.

Water Crisis

So since Jackson, Mississippi has no water pressure, I think I will be working from home all week. I hope it goes better than yesterday.

I had severe problems coping yesterday with work, and then wound up taking off for the day at 10:45 a.m. Then I was trying to go to the grocery store when I picked up a screw in my tire and had to spend most of the rest of the day at the tire place getting it fixed. I also went in to see my psychiatrist after the tire place and he put me on something for sleep apnea grogginess. So we will see how today goes. SO I lived like a week in 24 hours yesterday. I have to keep reminding myself that it is only Tuesday today.

ANyway. I still need to finish a few things before starting work. Hope everyone has a good day today. Godspeed.