Now I’m Mad

My temporary crown just came off my tooth for the SECOND time since I had it put on.  It’ was put back on last Thursday and now it has come off again.   I get my permanent one next Tuesday.   I was supposed to go to the food pantry and help today but instead will be at the dentist getting this taken care of.

I am so frustrated at these people being so nonchalant about it. I don’t go in until two hours from now to get it put back on. Last time I had to wait overnight.   I am going to ask if my permanent one has come in yet and ask if it can be put on this time so I don’t have to go back next week.  I’m tempted to go and try to go back to sleep so I don’t injure it in any way.  We will see how all of this goes.





Too Much

I bit off more than I could chew in lecturing today.  I read through the material I had assigned and realized there was no way I could cover it all.  So I had them choose from two writing assignments and when they finished writing, they got into groups to discuss what they had written.  It worked really well but I feel ashamed that I copped out like that.  I think next semester I won’t emphasize the history so much and devote more time to authors, just make them responsible for reading the history and giving them pop quizzes on it and testing them on it.  So I will have more time on the syllabus to get  more done.

We had a good weekend–I got the house to myself Sunday while Bob and the youngest one went to a dance clinic.  My oldest one came to visit and stayed through Saturday.  We went to see Thor: Ragnorok and it was a really cool movie  You saw Thor get really, really angry and just shoot lighting from his fingertips while he was in berserker mode.  It was a great special effects movie that also had a good storyline and characters.  I enjoyed it a lot more than I thought I would and might would even watch it again.

Long day ahead.  I have the papers to grade so will be able to spend my office time usefully.  But hopefully I will do better in the future and not cop out like I did today.  Not that what I did wasn’t pedagogically sound, but it felt like cheating.  ANd I don’t want to do that again.



(The computer just ate my whole post. I’m now frustrated.  Check back tomorrow for hopefully more cogent commentary on my life and how things are going.  I’m going to do laundry, which does not involve a computer eating my words like it has done twice today.  Good day. )


I’m Trying So Hard

to stick to the no-Cokes rule but it’s so hard.  I’ve already lost seven pounds since Labor Day and don’t want to stop the progress I’ve got going.  I need to lose SO MUCH weight.

Anyway.  Busy day today–I have lunch out then get my hair done at 1 p.m.  SO not much down time today.  I’ll be busy this week and maybe can rest up next week.

I’m trying to make sure that I’m not slipping backwards instead of just sleepy because of the no caffeine.  I need to do better in the house and keeping up with everything.  I lose track of it so easily and let things pile up.



Bob’s Doctor Visit

Bob has finally broken down and is going to the doctor.  He had a bad coughing fit when we went to the game, to the point that we had to leave with me driving home at night.   SO Janet is taking him to the doctor this morning and we will see what he recommends.

THis week is going to be rough with my W class. We have an essay due, I have a creative project due, and we have three discussion threads to answer to.  I’ve got the essay and the creative one done but need to get on the discussions as soon as I can.  But I am so sleepy right now I’m not sure I’d be coherent.

One more hour for my office hours then I go home and eat lunch.  Bob’s appointment is at 11 a,m, so hopefully we can get some good medicine in him soon and get him well–or as well as he can be.

Got an invitation to go to UMC;s Diversity Day again but am having to skip it since it’s on a Friday morning.  I hate it, but that’s part of having a job. I’ll be glad for it come payday.

I’m still trying to stick to my no caffeine rule but today it’s hard. I don’t feel as bad as I did Friday, but I can tell I haven’t had any today.  I go see TIllie tomorrow and depending on how Bob is doing is whether I go out to lunch with Jo for my birthday afterwards, I will have to talk to him about that.


I’ve felt more or less awful most of the day.  I went and worked in the food pantry and did well there, but I got home and felt faint. I thought maybe I was just hungry but I ate and didn’t feel any better so I went and laid down and didn’t get up until the youngest one got home.  I slept through Bob’s lunch and everything.  I still don’t feel quite right but will need to fix dinner in a bit.




We’re getting the leftovers from Hurricane Irma here in central Mississippi–rain and it’s chilly from the wind,  But it’s not too bad here, just raining.

I’ve gone off of caffeine and can certainly tell it–I’m so sleepy and tired.  I’m trying to stay awake but it is incredibly hard.  I’ve worked some in the paper that’s due next week and we will see how that goes.   I feel like I’m slogging through molasses in my mind, though.  Hopefully I will get over the withdrawal stage soon and start losing a little weight; leaving off the Cokes should save me 420 calories a day.

Days like today I hate living with bipolar.  If I didn’t have to take the meds to stave off mania, I wouldn’t be so dependent on Cokes, I could just enjoy them,  If it weren’t for staving off the weight loss that often comes from depression, I maybe wouldn’t be so heavy.