SO again I am doing well and am going to tell Dr. Bishop that this morning. It’s an early appointment so I will have plenty of time to see him then go see Katrina for lunch at 11 a.m. I’m looking forward to that. I hope we can have a good time talking shop.
I did filing yesterday and my youngest helped me do some decorating on my shelf unit last night. We pulled photographs out of my closet and put them on my shelves along with books. Finally found places for my Mulder and Scully Barbies and my Legally Blond Barbie. They’re up on top of my shelf. I supposed I need to dig out my Elvis Barbie too and put it up there, but it can wait. It’s not my favorite.
I follow up with Tillie again on TUesday–she wanted to see me after I saw Dr. Bishop again. I sure am glad this med change has had an effect so I don’t have to do ECT. That was scaring me a little bit. But I am doing so much better. I’m not even tempted to try to go back to sleep and see if I can wake up in time. So that is nice.
I’m going to try to leave at eight so I can negotiate the wet roads and the traffic this time of day and still get there on time. It’s supposed to be cold tomorrow and I don’t know what that’s going to do with all the wetness in the air.
The happiness is continuing–the furniture people came out and fixed my bookshelf and I have written a new article all this morning. So I am very much in my happy place today. I’m going to start loading my desk and shelves and files with my stuff after lunch and see what all I can get accomplished.
I need to work on laundry as well but I’m energized enough that that shouldn’t be a problem. WE go to church tonight and that will be good. The only shadow is that Bob is still not feeling well. I wish eh could get some relief from his bronchial problems. ANd it continuing to rain and flood in Jackson Luckily we are a long way away from the flood zone. But it just KEEPS RAINING! No idea on when the water’s going to recede.
WEll. I am going to go start lunch. I have ben busy and I am hungry. Still avoiding the Cokes and I feel so good being able to say that. Hope everyone has a happy Wednesday!
It feels dangerous to say this out loud. I am truly happy right this moment. I’m settled in to my writing, I have a direction I haven’t felt in a long time, I have a happy family life, and I feel right in my head for the first time in a long time. I have friendships, I have good music, I feel right in my own skin.
Having said all that, I’m afraid for the other shoe to drop.
But I can’t live in that space, afraid for the future. I need to be joyful and happy where I am. I don’t need to rest alone in my circumstances but in my eternal rescue as well.
Nothing in particular has brought me this feeling today–it’s just there. And I am glad for it. Thankful and glad.
FInally. It’s a school holiday here so I slept in since my daughter was doing so as well. But we had a good weekend–my youngest had her family party–that went well. My furniture was delivered for my office so I am now typing in it and slowly settling into it. My shelf unit had one of the shelves broken out of it during delivery so I am waiting on them to schedule someone to come out and fix it this week so I can start putting books and what not into it. I am looking forward to that part.
Got a fiction acceptance finally yesterday as well! It was the first time I sent that piece out I think or maybe the second because I really didn’t think it was much at all–I had done it as an exercise for fiction workshop and called it “The Zen Masters” talking about a certain type of patient on the mental ward I’ve noticed. An outfit called McQueen’s picked it out of a batch I sent them and wants to publish it in March. So that made me happy.
My mood is holding up even though I forgot to take my meal time meds last night. I could just kick myself. I don’t know how to make sure I remember them every time. I try and try but have now forgotten twice. All I can do is all I can do. Its just going to take time to form that habit.
WEll. I will soon need to get ready to take my youngest out, Hope everyone has a good day.
I wrapped presents this morning–three for Valentine’s Day for the family and the rest for my youngest’s family birthday party on Sunday, I finally got wrapped-out and had to bag the last two because I was tired :). But it is one more thing done as I am working through the work week trying to get things done.
I sent off two pieces that I hope will go somewhere big. I’ll release details once I know they’ve been accepted. But I think they will be. I hope so anyway.
Now I am waiting on laundry to dry. Hopefully that will finish soon so I can get that done and over with. I need to read and do my assignments and so we will see how that goes. I am waiting to hear from my furniture–I hope they call soon so I will know when it comes in. I want it to come in before the party so I can show the office off. But I don’t know if it will or not.
My mood is good today–no hangups or grogginess or anything bothering me. I am wondering if maybe once the rain dries out I can start walking. I need to get some god tennis shoes-I have some comfortable Keds but I don’t see the holding up well to street exercise. But this Latuda comes with all kinds of warnings about diabetes and everything so I am really scared about gaining on it and not being able to avoid the diabetes side effects.
Hope everyone is on the downslope to the weekend. It’s been a long week for some reason. But I’ve gotten through it okay, which I didn’t think was possible this time last week. So that is good. Happy Thursday.
My youngest ise fifteen today! She didn’t have a good start–she went early to get her drivers’ permit and missed one too many questions and was really disappointed But she can look forward to presents tonight and everything else. Hopefully that will pep her up. I want her to have a happy birthday, not a sad one.
I need to run errands this afternoon. I am waiting for a scan to finish on Bob’s computer before I go. I need to get medicine, bread, and Bob’s Valentine present. So that will be fun now that the sun ha s come out some.
I haven’t been all that active today–the news about the permit bummed me out too some. But she’ll make it eventually so I have to hold on to that. At least we go to church tonight and that will be good.
My mood is holding up even if my energy levels haven’t been so that is a net positive. I’ll get more energetic as the day progresses. Hope things are going well for the rest of you all. Have a good Wednesday!
So I went to see Tillie and had a good talk with her. She said she was glad I got in to see Dr. Bishop and got my medication changed and that they were helping so far. I talked to her about how the episodes felt and what I had done trying to combat them–it was a really good session. She noted that this had been very different from my usual breakdowns this time of year, and I agreed–no distortions, no obsessions, no suicidal ideations, nothing up the normal line of my symptoms.
Then I went and met Marlo and we had a good talk. WE talked for a good hour and a half about our various projects and what all was going on. She is going to Italy to tag along with Wyatt Waters and Robert St. John on an art & food cruise they do twice a year for a story she is doing on them. I told her SO LUCKY! Then I talked about how close I was getting to thesis and she told me SO LUCKY. So we have a real mutual appreciation society going on with each other–our careers look very different but we both love what we’re doing so that is good.
It is still raining here. I wonder when it will stop. I try not to think about the Easter Floods. But if the rain doesn’t slow down, Mississippi will have flooding somewhere–either Jackson on the Pearl or the Mississippi River region. Very scary.
I am all ready for the conference for class tonight. We will see how it all goes. I will go do something with laundry once I finish this. That need drying. Then I’m not sure what all I am gong to do. I’ts only a little while before my youngest gets home. We will see how it goes. Hope everyone is having a happy TUesday!