I am so angry and devastated and heartbroken I can barely type.
The hospital that I owe my life to, St. Dominic’s Hospital in Jackson, Mississippi, has closed their behavioral health center as of 7 a.m. this morning. They say it is a cost-saving measure, that the unit lost several million dollars a year in the past three to five years. (I thought St. Dominic’s was a non-profit hospital. Apparently not)
I found out through a Facebook post from my psychiatrist’s professional web page. He said that the St. Dominic’s closing its mental ward did not affect his private practice–he was still available to patients.
I was so shocked my legs went weak as I read the hospital’s press release.
This hospital is where I would go when I needed protection from myself.
St Dominic’s Behavioral Health took patients from all over the state. It had a geriatric psych unit for the elderly patients and an acute ward for adults. And it’s just–gone.
They saved my life in 2006.
And 2007.
And 2008.
And 2009.
And 2011.
Again in 2016.
Again in 2018.
And again for the last time in 2020, at the start of the pandemic, the first time I was homicidally angry at the world and scared I would kill random strangers walking down my street out of my paranoia.
What can we as mental health patients do to stop the world from thinking of us as people that can just be thrown away? That’s what St. Dominic’s is doing here. Throwing people away. People like me, who can work and raise families and contribute to society–as long as we have good treatment options.
I am not a Medicaid patient. I pay for Medicare and private health insurance. And we have still spent well over $50K over the past seventeen years doing business with St. Dominic’s Hospital. I am not asking for charity here. I am asking for simple human compassion on suffering people–like me.
I understand that caring for the mentally ill is a job that no one seems to want to do. Not the private sector, the public sector, the courts, the jails, no one. But I don’t think people understand that people are going to DIE as a result of this trend of closing mental hospitals. People who can’t think of a reason to live will DIE. I have been that person. I can’t believe we have devolved as a society that we can just throw people away like this.
I just don’t know what else I can say.