Months ago we saw an advertisement for a LEGO display show down te road from us in Peal. I bought three tickets since Bob was so excited about it. It finally came today, and Bob was too sick to go. So my youngest and I went. There were some really impressive LEGO installations–the Taj Mahal, Washington, DC, Jabba the Hutt’s Court, a whole two tables of NASA installations, from the Saturn V to the ISS, flat LEGO pictures, etc. My youngest took lots of pictures and brought them home to show Bob. Then we went out for pizza and brought him a personal one home.

So that has been my morning. Need to do a little laundry this afternoon and figure out what to eat tonight. Then start putting together the stories I’ve contracted to do. Time has snuck up on me. Wednesday’s my birthday, next Saturday band competitions start, then the next Saturday I fly out for my oldest’s surgery. So I am about to be even busier.

We slept late this morning, but we both needed it-I am having trouble going to sleep and then staying asleep late into the night. I think it’s because of the cut down on some of my medicine, but I’m going to try to stay awake more today and see if that makes a difference. I usually take a nap beginning about now but we also have the ballgame this afternoon. So I’m going to watch that. Maybe we can keep our winning streak going. That would be interesting.

I suppose I will run. I need to go to the grocery store before the game so I need to run. Have a good weekend!


So Bob is home because of his cough and refuses to go get a COVID test. I am so frustrated at him and at his company for not making him get one. He developed symptoms well in the time period for incubation for getting it from our middle one, who’s last quarantine day is today. He says it just feels like a bad sinus infection. Sigh.

I did not sleep well last night. I just laid there with my head just spinning around. I went back to bed after everyone left and caught some up so I don’t feel like face-planting into the keyboard. I sent some emails and swapped around some laundry before I went down so I got a little bit done this morning. I need to follow up on other emails and do some reading. This morning while I was sleeping, I kept thinking I had final exams this week and I hadn’t had time to read the books for one particular class. Anxiety all over again.

It’ll soon be time for lunch–I need to run out and get me a coke or tea or something. Maybe that will keep me awake through this afternoon. I hope so.


My body and mind are rebelling at the idea of being awake and productive all day long. Trying to convince me I can’t do it. I just need practice again, that’s all. And if I want to work, I will, by God.

Bought tickets for the trip to Orlando. Nice price on them considering they are round-trip and on weekend days. Maybe its the time of year. But I’m all set up for going. I so hope I am able to help as much as is needed. I know my temptation will be to play with the baby all day long. But my oldest will need help with cooking and etc. as well. I hope I can be a help instead of a hindrance.

Waiting on Bob to bring lunch–he said he was in the mood for Ramey’s. They do country food–fried chicken, turnip greens, butterbeans, etc. So that will be yummy.

My mood isn’t bad. I’m just very sleepy and feeling bothered by that. Not able to stay awake, etc. I need to do laundry today so I will get to that. Hopefully I can get something done today. Hope everyone continues to be safe. You’re all probably safer than me–we are now the #1 state in COVID deaths per capita. Pray that this nightmare can end,


I think the weather is making me sleepy. We are experiencing the leftovers of Nicholas down in the Gulf, with a lot of humidity and rain. I need to get out and get milk and some of my medicine. But it looks so yucky out.

We are trying to get tickets for me to go to Orlando to help my oldest when she has her surgery. Bob is supposed to take care of it at lunch today. Hopefully he can.

I’m really feeling the weight of this decision to try full-time work. It’s going to mean a lot of changes around here and a lot of change and determination on my part to get back into the swing of that kind of work. I’ve made several applications now and now am waiting on hearing back. I’m getting kind of scared now. What if no one will hire me? What if I can’t hack the work? Very much self-doubt all of a sudden.

I need to run out and do my errands while it’s not actively raining. Stay safe. Godspeed.


Spoke to Tillie and Dr. Bishop this morning. Talked to both of them about my idea on getting a full-time job. Dr. Bishop said that if I needed a letter for accommodations, he would provide it. Tillie was very concerned I would bite off more than I could chew. I told her I understood that. But I can’t just sit at home all the time and I’m never going to be a proper housewife. It doesn’t fulfill me and I am no longer a stay-at-home-mom, which kept me busy before. My youngest is just about ready to launch–if Bob and I work together, we can manage her last year or so in school. I told Bob last night that it was what I wanted to do. He didn’t argue or discourage me so that was good.

I’ve filled out three formal applications I’ve found on LinkedIn and I’m going to talk to people I know if anything else is going on. I am being very selective in what I am trying to do. I don’t want to bite off too much, and I don’t want to get caught up in something I don’t think I will enjoy or I’m not qualified for. So we will see.

Otherwise Tillie and I had a good talk. We will just see what happens. I think I am going to chase a few more rabbits and see what I can find out. Hope everyone is staying safe. My middle one is feeling much better from COVID. SoI am glad of that. Godspeed.

I’ve Done It

I’ve actually done some things this morning! I went to the grocery store and picked up a few things then made another phone call on my MCIR story and got some response, which was great! Still have calls to do but I am going to be speaking to legislators and such so I will get a lot of wiggly squirmy answers trying to not say anything that will hurt themselves.

I did lie down after doing so much until I got the phone call, so now I’m awake and back up doing things. I Will soon be getting lunch so that will be nice. Mike got his copy of my thesis and wrote me the nicest note about me sending it to him and including him in the dedication. So that was nice to hear.

I will soon need to work on my October piece or BPHope. I am trying so hard to stay up on doing these assignments. I need to find the fun in writing again. This part is fun to me–the blogging where I can just talk about whatever I want and share my thoughts. But the more structured stuff needs to be fun again as well and stop being afraid of the blank page.

I am hungry. I’m going to go ahead and wind up here and eat. Hope everyone has a good week. Mine is starting off well and I hope it can continue that way.


I went to see my mom for her birthday today. I figured we would eat at noon, but my sister didn’t get there until after one. So I was late getting back. I need to decide if I am cooking tonight. I am exhausted, though.

My sister got me a MSU 2021 College World Series National Champion t-shirt for my birthday. So that was nice. I never told mom anything to get so I guess she couldn’t think of anything. Daddy was in a good mood, but my sister’s baby was NOT. He didn’t calm down until just before I left.

The game was so good yesterday/last night. We had a beautiful first kickoff return for 100 yards to start the game so that lit up the place up pretty well. It was the first home game too so that was fun. Bob was picking up pizza when it happened so he missed it. But we had other good moments too and won the game.

I guess I need to figure out dinner. I am really tired. I think I’m going to suggest Mexican. Hope everyone has a good week. I had a good day but the driving was tiring. Godspeed.


We went to the high school game last night and saw our youngest one march in the and. She was a flag tosser and they performed really well. The band as a whole sounded really well to me. We left with less than five minutes in the fourth quarter behind by at least a touchdown–and then the other team fumbled on their own thirty-five yard line and we scored and won! Such a nice surprise to come home to after giving up. We are going to watch State tonight, I think.

.Talked to my middle one who is handling COVID much better the second time around. She’s had the vaccine now and i handling it well. Bob finally went in to take the vaccine because their work insurance plan insisted everyone get it or submit to weekly testing. I am glad he finally decided to; With his lung problems, he didn’t need to keep going without them.

I think I’m going to take a nap after I finish. Bob didn’t sleep well so neither did I. I will enjoy a nap. I hope I can get phone calls done the first of next week and finally wrap up this story.

Need todo a couple more emails before I do. Hope everyone stays safe this weekend. We seem to have passed the peak in this wave. Hopefully cases and deaths will keep dropping. Pray for Louisiana–people are still suffering there.




Just got off the phone with my middle one–she said she is actually feeling better somewhat. She has a date to return to work on September 20–hopefully she will be all better by then and finish out her quarantine period.

My youngest tested herself again today, and it was negative so she is still going to the football game this weekend with her grandparents. I am going to go see my mom on her birthday Sunday. I need to go pick up a present for her today. I hope I will just be able to walk in and get it and not have to order anything. But we will see.

I got up early this morning but couldn’t face not being to do much with a long empty day, so I went back to sleep. We will see ow the rest of the day goes. I’m going to make some phone calls once Bob leaves and try to accomplish something besides laundry today.

I’m not ruminating anymore, so that is good. I can stop my thinking before it gets out of control. I am trying to talk to myself and encourage myself but whenever I do I still have the underlying soundtrack of, “It doesn’t matter; I don’t care” going on–not as loudly as before, though. Maybe soon I can completely leave all that behind.

I guess I will run try to get something done. Hope everyone has a good Friday and a good weekend. Godspeed.

Next Day

I feel much better even though I slept in a bit. We have had some excitement–my middle one that we just visited called yesterday to say she has COVID. We went out and got home tests and found out we’re all negative. So that was good news. Bob is having to stay off work until he takes another test and it’s negative. And since my youngest had a negative test she doesn’t have to quarantine from school. I just hope they were all real negatives and we don’t get sick.

I asked my mid e one if she wanted me to come up since last time she got dangerously down with it, and she said she thought she could make it on her own. So that is where we are with that.

I need to run out and get us some quick meals for the next three nights–my youngest is going to be out with friends tonight, we have the ball game tomorrow night, and my youngest is supposed to go spend the night with her grandparents Saturday night. We will see if I go see my parents Saturday after I call them in just a bit.

I just want to catch my breath between crises, please. At least this time I’m not working myself into a frenzy. I am a lot calmer. So that is a help.

Hope everyone is being safe. We are doing our best down here. Pray as you feel led. Thanks so much for reading.