Not Writing

I seem to have reached an impasse with my writing.  I haven’t written anything substantive since my class was over in May except what I’ve written here on the blog.  I knew once I discovered where my obsessions stem from that I might not ever write fiction again, but now I am frozen up on all kinds of writing. But I at the same time feel kind of at peace about it. I still want to finish my degree so I can teach, but I may not write again after my thesis.  I still want to publish my thesis so I  can reach people with a message of hope.  And I want to keep this blog going.  But I Just don’t have the driving desire to write that I used to have. I miss it. But It may be for the best.  I don’t know.

My middle one gets home day after tomorrow.  I am excited to hear about her trip.  I know she enjoyed it because of the happy emails she has sent us.  We will see how late she comes in Saturday.  She’ll probably want to go straight to bed.  But that will be okay.

Well, I’m going to grab some lunch and see what else the day holds.  Hope everyone has a good end of the week and a good weekend.



Another Wednesday

I go see a dermatologist today about how my psoriasis is spreading on my neck and see if he has any medications for it. I have to go early so that is why I am still awake even though Bob has left.  I am so sleepy.

Terrie called late last night–she has been told by one of the chefs in charge that she definitely would be hired on full time after her internship was up.  So tha was exciting for her and a nice compliment for no longer than she’s been in the kitchen with them.

I am yawning  so much.  I coughed again some last night and didn’t sleep well.  So that was the way last night went.   Long, long day ahead.

Maybe I can get a nap this afternoon.  Hope everyone is having a good week and looking forward to the weekend!


I go see the dentist this morning, Tillie this afternoon, and the dermatologist tomorrow morning.  So I am busy today,  That will help me though not be so bored, etc.

I made another recording for my vlog and put it up yesterday,  Check out the channel “Julie Whitehead” on YouTube and catch my latest broadcast about my day to day life with bipolar disorder.

I am sleepy this morning but up and doing.  Read my Bible and checked on all my message places and looked on Facebook.  Candy and Christy are here working so we are talking on and off as I type.  I love these girls and how much help they are to me.

I need to work over my syllabus and revise it for this fall.  Then send it over to be copied and all at MC.  I will need to run over there at some point then and pick them up and meet with the lady to set my class up in Moodle, the online interface.  So I have things coming up to do in July.

I guess I wil go get ready to leave for my dental appointment.  Hope everyone has a good day today!

Another Monday

I am around to hear from Tillie about my appointment tomorrow.  I’m having to rearrange it since a dental appointment has come up at the same time.  Not looking forward to that then.

My youngest is cat-sitting this week for our neighbors while they are on a trip.  She runs over and feeds the cat while they are gone.  She will play with it for a little bit them come back.  I thinks she likes cats.

I coughed again last night so I did not sleep well.  So frustrating to still be coughing after that reflux attack last week.  I;ve been sucking on cough drops and taking cough meds so I don’t know how else to control it.  I am so sleepy.

I need to go to the grocery store this morning.  Bob must be in a meeting since he  hasn’t called yet.  I will need to get ready and leave after I finish writing and see what I can accomplish.

My middle one comes hoe this coming weekend. I am looking forward to that.  Then in about two weeks she will go back to State and take courses for the last summer semester.

My mood is improving slowly as I wake up.  Hopefully it will be better when I make my recording this morning. Everyone have a great rest of the week and a good Monday to start it off.



Today we go see Bob’s cousins. He has a first cousin who is visiting here in Mississippi who has seven children. So things are always fun when they come.  We’re going over to my mother-in-law’s and eat lunch and spend the afternoon with them.  This will be the first time that my youngest has been around them since their great-grandmother’s funeral in 2012.    SO we will see how it goes.

I am still achy from my coughing the other night. I haven’t done much of anything this morning.  I have all the laundry done and caught up so that is much better than usual for me.

My mood is kind of sliding south–I still feel very much at loose ends and don’t know where things are going.  I miss being active in my own life.  I hate feeling so helpless about my own future.  I just wish I had some direction.  

Hope everyone has a good weekend and Happy Father’s Day!


Reflux Night

I ate something I shouldn’t have and had a reflux cough all night.  I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck in my chest it hurts so much.  But I sucked down a lot of cough drops and got it under control so I could sleep some.

Trying to arrange a sleepover with my youngest and one of her friends for a couple of weeks from now.  I figured out the schedules for when schools start and the summer is disappearing quickly.  But I’m kind of glad of that–I’m ready to get back into the swing of things for fall with my classes.  I need structure and haven’t really had any since school has been out.

My oldest texted us about her first night at the Disney restaurant and said it went swimmingly.  She said she made friends with the supervising chef and another girl who lives in her apartment complex so she was happy about that.  I just keep praying she finds favor with God and man throughout this experience.

Well, that’s about all I have to say today.  I hope I can get through the day with as little sleep as I got.

Good Morning!

I’m up early this morning and am feeling pretty good about it!  We plan to go swimming this morning so my youngest is looking forward to that.   I’m going to take a book and see if I can get some reading accomplished.  I need to order my books for my class this fall at some point and I need to redo my syllabus for class this fall.  So I have projects to do and feel good about doing them.

Listening to the new CD’s I bought Sunday–I got an Andrew Lloyd Weber collection of two discs and a Paul Schaffer CD.  So that has been fun. I am saving the others for Bob for Father’s Day, our anniversary, and his birthday.  I hope he enjoys them.

Tillie gave me a writing assignment for next week so I will need to work on that.  Talking about the obsessions, what kicks them off, and what I can now tell myself about them to make them not happen again.

So I will see what I can get accomplished before we leave to swim.  I think I’ll work on my syllabus. Hope everyone has a good rest of the week.