Well, it’s freezing cold outside, but it’s not iced over or snowing. So we are better off than so many other people. But that doesn’t seem to help my mood any. Last night I felt myself slipping downhill. I wanted to just sleep all day, and last night I realized the depression is well on it’s way in. I’m trying to read some uplifting books that have helped me in the past, so hopefully I can put some of that positive thinking into action.
I’m mostly frustrated is how I mostly feel. That I can’t seem to get anything done. That I’m so sleepy and tired all the time from the meds. That even when I do go to sleep, I don’t seem to sleep well. That I’m not really motivated to do anything. I’m not sure how long this post is going to be because I can’t really think of much to say about it that doesn’t degenerate into whining. And I hate whining.
At least I don’t lecture today and Wednesday. They are doing in-class writing on their poetry themes. I do wish more of them would ask questions so they wouldn’t make such bad mistakes in their papers. But I do all I can do to get everything across to them. We will see how this goes.
Sorry to not be more upbeat. I do hope to keep posting everyday and hope to start a new series on support groups soon after I do research into the different ones. So I’m trying to just hang in there and keep from slipping any further,.